Robbs
04-09-08, 13:28
hi my names Rob, thought i'd register cos im having a bad time at the mo :weep:, i've been living with axiety and panic attacks since i was 17 im 30 now, it all started due to being a bit of a tear away as a youngster, i dabbled with drugs and drunk alot ect and one night i got into a fight and got head butted about 5 times then felt really strange for about a week, then one evening out with my friends thats when i had my first panic attack and i was convinced one of them had spiked me with with an E, next morning i woke up and felt exactly the same so i saw the doc and he refered me to a phychiatrist who couldn't really find the root of the problem and blamed it on to much drugs when i was so young as nothing in perticular sets off a panic attack for me they just happen, i gave up drugs straight away but replaced them with more drink, anyway i was really bad for about 2-3 years panic and anxiety everyday and the only relief i had was to get drunk but i learnt to live with it and it wasn't as bad for 2 years but my drinking got out of control and i was drinking almost everyday till i was plastered, untill one night in 2000 i woke up feeling like i couldn't breath and bang from that moment it all came back even worse and with hyperventalation so i gave up drinking straight away, i was really bad for a good 2 years but i had a good girlfriend and she helped me alot by dragging me out when i wouldn't leave the house etc as i was close to becoming agrophobic, i learnt to cope with it all just by trying to get on with it and ignoring it which works quite well for me and for the last 5 years or so even though it still affected me almost everyday i just got on with it and managed to live a normal life and from 2006 till then end of 2007 hardly any panic attacks at all just mildly axious which i can ignore :yesyes:.
but i split with my girlfriend of nearly 9 years at the end of last year and had to move back home with my mum so i was stressed out and in january my eyes suddenly went funny like someone had just taken a picture (flash) so i went to the eye clinic the next day, they checked and said all was fine it was probably a migraine, this still didnt make me feel any better and my eyes weren't right for 3 weeks or so, then i was fine for 2 months untill it came back again but not so bad just feels like i've got tired eyes with a few flashes etc so i ignore it and it goes away, but last month i got it pretty bad and had to have a few days off work but as usual it went away, and on tuesday morning i woke up at 5.00 am with pain in my eyes flashing lights slightly blurred vision and its really freaked me out also feels like im living in a dream since then and im looking through someone else's eyes (sounds wierd i know but thats the only way i can explain it) this has made me really axious and panicy, i haven't been to work since and have only nipped down the shop twice as well, im 90% sure its just all axiety again, but im just after a bit of reasurance as i've had all the symptoms before but never got eye ache quite so bad with it, also it hurts in my cheecks and sinuses but that could be down to a hole in my tooth lol, i've rung the doctor and im waiting on a call back so we'll see what he thinks.
anyway thats my axiety story (sorry bout the essay got a bit carried away lol)
cheers Rob
but i split with my girlfriend of nearly 9 years at the end of last year and had to move back home with my mum so i was stressed out and in january my eyes suddenly went funny like someone had just taken a picture (flash) so i went to the eye clinic the next day, they checked and said all was fine it was probably a migraine, this still didnt make me feel any better and my eyes weren't right for 3 weeks or so, then i was fine for 2 months untill it came back again but not so bad just feels like i've got tired eyes with a few flashes etc so i ignore it and it goes away, but last month i got it pretty bad and had to have a few days off work but as usual it went away, and on tuesday morning i woke up at 5.00 am with pain in my eyes flashing lights slightly blurred vision and its really freaked me out also feels like im living in a dream since then and im looking through someone else's eyes (sounds wierd i know but thats the only way i can explain it) this has made me really axious and panicy, i haven't been to work since and have only nipped down the shop twice as well, im 90% sure its just all axiety again, but im just after a bit of reasurance as i've had all the symptoms before but never got eye ache quite so bad with it, also it hurts in my cheecks and sinuses but that could be down to a hole in my tooth lol, i've rung the doctor and im waiting on a call back so we'll see what he thinks.
anyway thats my axiety story (sorry bout the essay got a bit carried away lol)
cheers Rob