mothermac
05-09-08, 02:51
Hi guys,sorry to post a new thread again but I am feeling a bit let down and more anxious(if that's possible)today.
I am currently waiting for counselling and on Monday the surgery phoned to tell me that I was way down the list and will have to wait longer to see a counsellor,it could even be next year before I'm seen.
I feel as though I might be mad by then as my insomnia is getting worse,actually I don't think it's insomnia anymore I think it's anxiety waking me up and making me think I am going to have a heart attack or something,I can't remember the last time I slept right through the night-honestly I can't.
Does anybody else wake up suddenly or with a start with heart thumping or jumping,pulse in the throat and panicky thoughts and feelings?,they always happen in the middle of the night and not a night goes by without this happening to me,I tend to have disturbing dreams too when I do manage to drop off about 4am.
I feel so alone in this as my husband sleeps through these episodes of mine and I let him now as he can't do anything,what's the point of him losing sleep as well,only to sit downstairs with me panicking,he works hard and needs his rest.
I know the lack of sleep and rest is getting to me as I snap at folk during the day and constantly feel spaced out(I am not on any meds)and exhausted mentally,the only time I feel ok is when I am watching tv on a night or reading a magazine or book.
Sorry to go on AGAIN! but this counselling or lack of it is making me panic as I feel as though it will get worse if I don't get some form of help soon.
I am currently waiting for counselling and on Monday the surgery phoned to tell me that I was way down the list and will have to wait longer to see a counsellor,it could even be next year before I'm seen.
I feel as though I might be mad by then as my insomnia is getting worse,actually I don't think it's insomnia anymore I think it's anxiety waking me up and making me think I am going to have a heart attack or something,I can't remember the last time I slept right through the night-honestly I can't.
Does anybody else wake up suddenly or with a start with heart thumping or jumping,pulse in the throat and panicky thoughts and feelings?,they always happen in the middle of the night and not a night goes by without this happening to me,I tend to have disturbing dreams too when I do manage to drop off about 4am.
I feel so alone in this as my husband sleeps through these episodes of mine and I let him now as he can't do anything,what's the point of him losing sleep as well,only to sit downstairs with me panicking,he works hard and needs his rest.
I know the lack of sleep and rest is getting to me as I snap at folk during the day and constantly feel spaced out(I am not on any meds)and exhausted mentally,the only time I feel ok is when I am watching tv on a night or reading a magazine or book.
Sorry to go on AGAIN! but this counselling or lack of it is making me panic as I feel as though it will get worse if I don't get some form of help soon.