LoveMusic
05-09-08, 10:57
I'm going through a hard time at the moment. Something at the weekend triggered a panic attack and for some reason its deeply affected me, since then i have been at a state of anxiety over having another attack, i've been crying a lot, talking to Dad a lot. A thought, usual with panic disorder has stuck, 'what if I am like this, always' and this has led to me feel very exhausted and frustrated. Although unlogical, I feel like that is possible.
Yesterday I went to the doctor, she gave me beta blockers - propanol - which stop the physical symptons. I took one, then went to counselling after feeling sick, counselling was okay and I almost felt the physical symptoms slide. But, then it came back and it hit me hard. I seem to be unable to accept that this is a process, almost like a mini-illness that needs time. I am associating the need for time for it potentialy lasting a long time.
The problem is that it shifts very quickly and once I am in the panic its incredibly hard to get out or see sense. I am going to persist with the tablets and maybe try CBT threapy. This morning I took a tablet but it hasn't done anything and time seems to be going unbearably slowly.
At the moment this feels like my whole world.
Yesterday I went to the doctor, she gave me beta blockers - propanol - which stop the physical symptons. I took one, then went to counselling after feeling sick, counselling was okay and I almost felt the physical symptoms slide. But, then it came back and it hit me hard. I seem to be unable to accept that this is a process, almost like a mini-illness that needs time. I am associating the need for time for it potentialy lasting a long time.
The problem is that it shifts very quickly and once I am in the panic its incredibly hard to get out or see sense. I am going to persist with the tablets and maybe try CBT threapy. This morning I took a tablet but it hasn't done anything and time seems to be going unbearably slowly.
At the moment this feels like my whole world.