le1986
07-09-08, 23:36
Hi.
I stumbled upon this website whilst looking up symptoms for an illness online, which is something I do a lot and is one of my problems I think. I spent the afternoon with stomach pain and nausea which was undiagnosed and I've a feeling is anxiety related, despite a stomach infection last month.
I'm a 22 year old female and suffered my first panic attack 6 months ago, after frequent cocaine and mdma use, clubbing.
I began suffering depression prior to this due to a broken home and a relationship break up and was prescribed cytalopram some time ago, so i suppose it was all inevitable really.
I had no idea what was happening at the time as i'd never experienced anxiety or panic attacks before but it was very scary and i of course thought i was dying. i obsessed over my breathing for ages afterwards, couldn't sleep for weeks, checked my pulse all the time, obsessed over my health and well I've developed a problem with anxiety and had panic attacks over the smallest things - mainly health related ever since.
I've just come back from travelling for 3 months and had an amazing time, I didn't touch drugs throughout, I did however get ill towards the end of it with a stomach infection and got sucked in by the anxiety and panic again as I presumed the worst.
I've had a million of these little episodes in the last 6 months, called ambulances, gone to hospitals, and well I suppose right now I'm just feeling really tired and depressed by it all and regretful of my behaviour and social life 6 months ago... and also feel like it was cut short.. as I'm almost too paranoid to enjoy myself properly anymore.
I am so shocked and pleased to read of so many people out there experiencing all the same things i have since finding this site as I felt so alone, like no one understands. And I don't blame them, because it is impossible to understand it until you've experienced it.
I'm really determined to get through this without taking medication for it.
:weep:
I stumbled upon this website whilst looking up symptoms for an illness online, which is something I do a lot and is one of my problems I think. I spent the afternoon with stomach pain and nausea which was undiagnosed and I've a feeling is anxiety related, despite a stomach infection last month.
I'm a 22 year old female and suffered my first panic attack 6 months ago, after frequent cocaine and mdma use, clubbing.
I began suffering depression prior to this due to a broken home and a relationship break up and was prescribed cytalopram some time ago, so i suppose it was all inevitable really.
I had no idea what was happening at the time as i'd never experienced anxiety or panic attacks before but it was very scary and i of course thought i was dying. i obsessed over my breathing for ages afterwards, couldn't sleep for weeks, checked my pulse all the time, obsessed over my health and well I've developed a problem with anxiety and had panic attacks over the smallest things - mainly health related ever since.
I've just come back from travelling for 3 months and had an amazing time, I didn't touch drugs throughout, I did however get ill towards the end of it with a stomach infection and got sucked in by the anxiety and panic again as I presumed the worst.
I've had a million of these little episodes in the last 6 months, called ambulances, gone to hospitals, and well I suppose right now I'm just feeling really tired and depressed by it all and regretful of my behaviour and social life 6 months ago... and also feel like it was cut short.. as I'm almost too paranoid to enjoy myself properly anymore.
I am so shocked and pleased to read of so many people out there experiencing all the same things i have since finding this site as I felt so alone, like no one understands. And I don't blame them, because it is impossible to understand it until you've experienced it.
I'm really determined to get through this without taking medication for it.
:weep: