popsy
08-09-08, 10:46
My anxiety levels and then depression have really worsened recently, ive tryed to ignore it, but my thoughts have been so negative that last night i really lost it. I couldnt stop crying and was so scared by the panic and depression. In the end i went to bed early, i was shivering for hours like i was in shock and felt freezing cold. When i did finally sleep my dreams were weird and apparently my partner say i continually kicked my legs all night, my legs felt like they were in pain.
By midnight i felt so dizzy and my ears were ringing, i felt incredibly sick so much so that i made myself sick. I was so clammy and spinning.
The whole thing was a nightmare, i felt like i had completely gone mad, and that my sanity has gone.
At 6am this morning, i made myself sick again, i know i shoudnt have done but it was the only way i could convince my partner i couldnt deal with the children and do the school run. He stayed off work and went in late and dealt with it all, i think he now thinks i have some bug - how i wish that is all that it was.
I feel so very frightened that the anxiety and depression could make me so physically ill, and keep thinking it has moved on and i am now dealing with a psychotic illness or something...
I have been so much better recently and dont understand why i have slipped back to where i was literally 9 months ago, before i started on anti-depressents and diazapam.
Has anyone else experienced there spells at night? I feel so detached from reality now and basically scared. I feel like i have nothing to look forward too, i just wanna break free and smile again.
Any advise would be gratefully received, just to know im not the only one who has experienced this would help so much. Im not even sure my description does it justice, i cannot put into words how bad it was and how scared i am now.
Hugs
Posy x x x x
By midnight i felt so dizzy and my ears were ringing, i felt incredibly sick so much so that i made myself sick. I was so clammy and spinning.
The whole thing was a nightmare, i felt like i had completely gone mad, and that my sanity has gone.
At 6am this morning, i made myself sick again, i know i shoudnt have done but it was the only way i could convince my partner i couldnt deal with the children and do the school run. He stayed off work and went in late and dealt with it all, i think he now thinks i have some bug - how i wish that is all that it was.
I feel so very frightened that the anxiety and depression could make me so physically ill, and keep thinking it has moved on and i am now dealing with a psychotic illness or something...
I have been so much better recently and dont understand why i have slipped back to where i was literally 9 months ago, before i started on anti-depressents and diazapam.
Has anyone else experienced there spells at night? I feel so detached from reality now and basically scared. I feel like i have nothing to look forward too, i just wanna break free and smile again.
Any advise would be gratefully received, just to know im not the only one who has experienced this would help so much. Im not even sure my description does it justice, i cannot put into words how bad it was and how scared i am now.
Hugs
Posy x x x x