cameron
08-09-08, 13:48
Firstly Im not the worlds best speller so try bare with me!..
I never ever want to experience that again in my life. Prior that bloody awful moment I was the sort of person that if you had said to me you suffer from panic attacks then Id quietly inside think your a little bit crazy and looking for pitty.
Im male, 42 year old and happerly married with kids, a self employed wedding photography and a real busy one at that I took on so much work for the year any other would proberly do over a 2 to 3 year period so this is where I know for sure the cause of my panic attack.
About 3 days prior the moment of the attack I started to get really tight chest pains all down my left-side, breathing was really shallow and I did not like to be in others company but as I had a wedding to do the day before the attack I had to go out and cover it wondering how the hell would I get thru the day without people noticing I looked a bit distant but I think that was just in my mind but the chest pains were real and on a couple of occasions on the day when someone would speak to me I could feel some sort of insecure about me and the more I thought of it then the worse it got and Id say sorry I suffer from Asthma but I dont, that was only an excuse to hid the fear that was rushing thru me like a jet engine starting I thought I was going crazy and chest pains were like being crushed in a vice.
As I got thru the day without freaking out in front of anyone when I got home I stayed up all night playing my guitar and must have drank about a bottle of Vodka over a good 10 hour session. For all that I had drank I really did not feel drunk so went to bed and woke up abouy 6 hours latter and thats when the nightmare of the panic attack came to a head.
Firstly I felt really insecure and did not want to be in anyones company and thought I was having a nervous brake down and for the chest pains I thought I was about to have a heart attack or stroke the feeling was terrible and one I will never forget, I felt as if all I wanted to do was cry and thats not me, I remember thinking I will run a big warm bath and soke in it but when I did I started to step in and out of the bath and my mind was by this time really thinking I was going mad and kept thinking I was 5 seconds away from a heart attack or stroke, my body by this time was tremberling, sweaty hands, feeling sick, blured vision, feeling strangly lonely the list was endless. It was a bloody awful experience and hope to god one I will never have to go thru again.
So how did I get thru it, well over the years Iv always from time to time liked to relax listening to hypnotherapy tapes and one I had was about Agrophobia although I dont suffer from that so as I played the tape the introduction tells you a few breathing exercises, take 3 deep out breaths not in breaths, as I did this while the panic attack was bombing me senceless things started to ease down and after a few moments all the body stress started to go away and the mind bending thoughts left. About a few hours latter I really felt on top of the world for coming thru that bloody awful moment and all pain had left me as if I never had it.
I can only hope that I will never feel like that again and Id glady give anything to never go thru that nightmare that scared me s***less.
Take care, Cameron.:blush:
I never ever want to experience that again in my life. Prior that bloody awful moment I was the sort of person that if you had said to me you suffer from panic attacks then Id quietly inside think your a little bit crazy and looking for pitty.
Im male, 42 year old and happerly married with kids, a self employed wedding photography and a real busy one at that I took on so much work for the year any other would proberly do over a 2 to 3 year period so this is where I know for sure the cause of my panic attack.
About 3 days prior the moment of the attack I started to get really tight chest pains all down my left-side, breathing was really shallow and I did not like to be in others company but as I had a wedding to do the day before the attack I had to go out and cover it wondering how the hell would I get thru the day without people noticing I looked a bit distant but I think that was just in my mind but the chest pains were real and on a couple of occasions on the day when someone would speak to me I could feel some sort of insecure about me and the more I thought of it then the worse it got and Id say sorry I suffer from Asthma but I dont, that was only an excuse to hid the fear that was rushing thru me like a jet engine starting I thought I was going crazy and chest pains were like being crushed in a vice.
As I got thru the day without freaking out in front of anyone when I got home I stayed up all night playing my guitar and must have drank about a bottle of Vodka over a good 10 hour session. For all that I had drank I really did not feel drunk so went to bed and woke up abouy 6 hours latter and thats when the nightmare of the panic attack came to a head.
Firstly I felt really insecure and did not want to be in anyones company and thought I was having a nervous brake down and for the chest pains I thought I was about to have a heart attack or stroke the feeling was terrible and one I will never forget, I felt as if all I wanted to do was cry and thats not me, I remember thinking I will run a big warm bath and soke in it but when I did I started to step in and out of the bath and my mind was by this time really thinking I was going mad and kept thinking I was 5 seconds away from a heart attack or stroke, my body by this time was tremberling, sweaty hands, feeling sick, blured vision, feeling strangly lonely the list was endless. It was a bloody awful experience and hope to god one I will never have to go thru again.
So how did I get thru it, well over the years Iv always from time to time liked to relax listening to hypnotherapy tapes and one I had was about Agrophobia although I dont suffer from that so as I played the tape the introduction tells you a few breathing exercises, take 3 deep out breaths not in breaths, as I did this while the panic attack was bombing me senceless things started to ease down and after a few moments all the body stress started to go away and the mind bending thoughts left. About a few hours latter I really felt on top of the world for coming thru that bloody awful moment and all pain had left me as if I never had it.
I can only hope that I will never feel like that again and Id glady give anything to never go thru that nightmare that scared me s***less.
Take care, Cameron.:blush: