orangeblossom
08-09-08, 14:38
I made a real step forward on Thursday when I went on the tube with my therapist - first time in over 4 years. And, I consolidated it by going on the tube again on Sunday. I felt so elated as you can imagine! It was a really, spectacularly, huge deal for me.
I spent Sunday night with a dreadful headache - caused by the stress of Thursday and Sunday and a few moments ago I attempted to go out of my flat to post a letter (birthday card to my best friend). I made it as far as the corner about 50 yards from the front of the building before turning round and literally dashing back inside because I felt as if I were going to die.
It was awful and I'm still sitting here light-headed, panicking and fingers just about able to type!
I just wanted to know if anyone else experiences this state of being able to make real progress, only to find that afterwards even basic things such as being able to leave the house is virtually impossible??
It really scares me - as irrational as it sounds, part of me is wondering whether I really did go on the tube or if that just me imagining the whole thing!!!!
I spent Sunday night with a dreadful headache - caused by the stress of Thursday and Sunday and a few moments ago I attempted to go out of my flat to post a letter (birthday card to my best friend). I made it as far as the corner about 50 yards from the front of the building before turning round and literally dashing back inside because I felt as if I were going to die.
It was awful and I'm still sitting here light-headed, panicking and fingers just about able to type!
I just wanted to know if anyone else experiences this state of being able to make real progress, only to find that afterwards even basic things such as being able to leave the house is virtually impossible??
It really scares me - as irrational as it sounds, part of me is wondering whether I really did go on the tube or if that just me imagining the whole thing!!!!