Patrick S
08-09-08, 15:34
When I joined almost a month ago I had started experiencing panic attacks again after years of getting rid of them. It's taken me time, but I realise that my anxiety and panic attacks have always got a human trigger to them. Which might sound ridiculous. I'll explain.
I have been in a relationship for nearly seven years. A few months ago I became close with a female friend of our friendship group, and it culminated in me realising that I was head over heels smitten with her. On that day I had what I would classify a 9 on my personal panic scale at work. And since then I have felt nauseous ever since. I also gate waves of shaking, as well as dizzy spells and lack of connection with reality.
My girlfriend has suspected something, and God knows I don't want to hurt her, but everytime she questions me I start getting vertigo and a distinct need to lie down. Followed by nauseousness. I've spent nearly three weeks drinking and smoking marijuana (which I gave up years ago) trying to sort it out. This culminated in me waking up in a pool of my own vomit on my own last friday.
I am going to face my fears and tell this girl how much she means to me and how much I wish I could take her pain away from the amount of hurt and abuse she has recieved from her ex-boyfriend. I need to do this because keeping quiet has made me lose nearly six kilos in weight in three weeks. I've been shaking all day, with dizzy spells and hyperventilating in the toilet breathing through an envelope.
I'm so bored of being in a state of anxiety and the panic attacks are my enemy. Come hell or high water I will begin sorting things out tonight.
I have been in a relationship for nearly seven years. A few months ago I became close with a female friend of our friendship group, and it culminated in me realising that I was head over heels smitten with her. On that day I had what I would classify a 9 on my personal panic scale at work. And since then I have felt nauseous ever since. I also gate waves of shaking, as well as dizzy spells and lack of connection with reality.
My girlfriend has suspected something, and God knows I don't want to hurt her, but everytime she questions me I start getting vertigo and a distinct need to lie down. Followed by nauseousness. I've spent nearly three weeks drinking and smoking marijuana (which I gave up years ago) trying to sort it out. This culminated in me waking up in a pool of my own vomit on my own last friday.
I am going to face my fears and tell this girl how much she means to me and how much I wish I could take her pain away from the amount of hurt and abuse she has recieved from her ex-boyfriend. I need to do this because keeping quiet has made me lose nearly six kilos in weight in three weeks. I've been shaking all day, with dizzy spells and hyperventilating in the toilet breathing through an envelope.
I'm so bored of being in a state of anxiety and the panic attacks are my enemy. Come hell or high water I will begin sorting things out tonight.