i can't cope with ovd

[Tabicat]

It's killing me.

Am so sick of OCD always trying to convince me i'm 'enjoying' all this sick crap, and it always very nearly succeeds! :( Have actually been up in my room trying to call a couple of helplines for the last hour. unsuccessful as none of the lines are available on the t-mobile network. oh, of course, because as these are charity numbers, t-mobile can't possibly let me call because these numbers ARE FREE.

there is no way i can go back to uni in this state.

i kept thinking today, do i have Schizophrenia, and i've been convincing myself i keep thinking things i see are what they're not, if it makes sense? like, images are flashing in my mind, and i keep thinking, are those external illusions?

i think i need to hand myself in to the hospital.

i almost wish a black hole would swallow me up, and leave the rest of the world alone!

i know how dramatic and silly this is, buti just can't do this anymore

[milly jones]

go talk to ur gp hunny. tell him what u hear, feel, see and hell do a referral

anxiety/depression is a horrible illness and u can get help hunny

milly xxxx

[k774]

chin up Tabicat, there are people who can help you. You don't have to do this alone. Everyone on here is supportive for a start. As Milly said go and see your GP asap.

Sending a hug and I am damning T Mobile for you too.

[gtrgrl3369]

Sorry to hear you arent doing so well. This is one thing I can help with as I have had OCD for way many years. If you need any help or have have any questions please feel free to write me. I will help in any way possible.

[Tabicat]

hey everyone,
thanks for the messages as they are really supporting. am having a rough time at the moment and finding it difficult to open up, so its really good to know im not alone.

can i just ask, do any of you know any books or things i can do to help myself? or any advice about how to cope? i'm having therapy soon, but still don't know when.

Tabs

[Tom_M]

Hi Tabicat

Well you could reassure yourself that it's stress that's probably feeding your OCD. When I used to have it bad, the more stressed I was the worst my OCD was. I have literally hundreds of books on different types of emotional problems, and lot's of video's. I'll see if I've got anything that might help and come back to this thread to let you know.

Tom

[Tom_M]

Here's a few links for now.

http://www.ocduk.org/2/foursteps.htm

http://www.jkp.com/catalogue/book.php/isbn/9781843105749

http://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinformation/mentalhealthproblems/obsessivecompulsivedisorder/obsessivecomplusivedisorder.aspx

http://ocdtodayuk.org/treatment_for_ocd.html

[Tabicat]

Hi Tom! Thank you so so so much for all the links! :) they are really helpful :)

I have the four steps, which i am trying to use atm, they are hard but i'm going to try!

am going to use the things on the other links too, and maybe buy a few books :)