Catya
11-09-08, 21:22
I am desperate.
I have been a depressive with only recently recognised OCD for all my life.
I started on SSRI's about 19 years ago...and to cut a long story short, after Seroxat "pooping" out on me after 12 years of use, i struggled, and managed to get myself off them. I will have been med free for 2 years this November.
I gained so much weight on Seroxat, and having lost some of it cannot go up this route again.
I keep saying I will have to try a med again as my life is now falling apart and I have had to give up my teaching job.... but part of my obsession is NOT going on medication. I actually have citalopram in my drawer and decide I'll have to take one (10mg to start with).... only to regret it the minute I've taken it....it's also this obsession about putting any weight on.
I just don't "see" myself.
Without my job..I'm nothing.
I'm sorry to sound so low. I'm sitting here with every light on to try and lift my mood. The mood swings are horrendous. A black cloud starts to descend on me mid afternoon every day now.
I see no way out.
Which meds are best for obsessive thinking?.....without putting too much weight on ?
Again, my apologies. I don't mean to bring others down.
I have been a depressive with only recently recognised OCD for all my life.
I started on SSRI's about 19 years ago...and to cut a long story short, after Seroxat "pooping" out on me after 12 years of use, i struggled, and managed to get myself off them. I will have been med free for 2 years this November.
I gained so much weight on Seroxat, and having lost some of it cannot go up this route again.
I keep saying I will have to try a med again as my life is now falling apart and I have had to give up my teaching job.... but part of my obsession is NOT going on medication. I actually have citalopram in my drawer and decide I'll have to take one (10mg to start with).... only to regret it the minute I've taken it....it's also this obsession about putting any weight on.
I just don't "see" myself.
Without my job..I'm nothing.
I'm sorry to sound so low. I'm sitting here with every light on to try and lift my mood. The mood swings are horrendous. A black cloud starts to descend on me mid afternoon every day now.
I see no way out.
Which meds are best for obsessive thinking?.....without putting too much weight on ?
Again, my apologies. I don't mean to bring others down.