bethyboo
22-05-05, 01:41
probably pointless me posting this now as everyone is prob asleep in bed. ive been on efexor for 5 months now, the panic attacks stopped and the anxiety has settled. am very unhappy at the mo and just cant shake myself out of it. cant sleep or eat again and feel like im going down that steep slope but without it being as horrific as when i wasnt on meds. how is this possible im on medication??? but am so utterly miserable?
have had an awful few weeks, my youngest son (four) told me that our 14 year neighbour made him masturbate him, the boy admitted it and the police took control. he was spoken to but only given a verbal caution as he was young and there was no physical evidence, also the boy claims he was unaware that what he made my son perform was a sexual act?????????? i have to live 3 doors fromt his family and see them everday, the parents say hello to me as if nothing has happened and i know they themselves are going through hell but tis like it never happened. I split up with my son's father 3 years ago but over the last few months we have got very close again. i thought maybe we could work things out and let down my gaurd, but he told me last night that although he still loved me i was basically a confort blanket!! so i thought right bugger u, didnt cry, havent cried, but now just feel empty and very sad and lonely lol, god i do sound pathetic.
am just so very very sick and tired of life at the mo. i havent ****** got one, all my family have moved to wales, all my freinds are lovely but are all settled and paired off and there all quite sain! feel like things are just poo, when they gna get better? i want a ****** life not this up and down, depressingly forced sence of normality. I AM NOT ****** NORMAL, i am depressed and i want a cuddle.
am also feeling very sorry for myself lol, u just cant cuddle a computer!
beth xx
have had an awful few weeks, my youngest son (four) told me that our 14 year neighbour made him masturbate him, the boy admitted it and the police took control. he was spoken to but only given a verbal caution as he was young and there was no physical evidence, also the boy claims he was unaware that what he made my son perform was a sexual act?????????? i have to live 3 doors fromt his family and see them everday, the parents say hello to me as if nothing has happened and i know they themselves are going through hell but tis like it never happened. I split up with my son's father 3 years ago but over the last few months we have got very close again. i thought maybe we could work things out and let down my gaurd, but he told me last night that although he still loved me i was basically a confort blanket!! so i thought right bugger u, didnt cry, havent cried, but now just feel empty and very sad and lonely lol, god i do sound pathetic.
am just so very very sick and tired of life at the mo. i havent ****** got one, all my family have moved to wales, all my freinds are lovely but are all settled and paired off and there all quite sain! feel like things are just poo, when they gna get better? i want a ****** life not this up and down, depressingly forced sence of normality. I AM NOT ****** NORMAL, i am depressed and i want a cuddle.
am also feeling very sorry for myself lol, u just cant cuddle a computer!
beth xx