lifeissweet
20-09-08, 14:41
just wanted to introduce myself and tell you all about me properly, altho i did post my first couple of posts last night.
im laura, im 26 and im married with 2 children. i have suffered with anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia since i was a teen.
i had one major episode of about a year or 2 when i was at uni, and was on anti-ds which helped but it has always been with me, and has now come back with avengence since my second child was born 3 months ago.
i dont worry about not being able to breathe/dying and all the physical things anymore, cause of the internet i have managed to find that really nothing physically wrong can happen to me....altho, and i find this so much worse, this time i focus on the mental things...i am convinced i will lose my mind, go crazy, forget my name, and have visions of myself in a mental hospital and ive failed my children so much. i have problems going anywhere, i mean i force myself to go, but always think "what if i panic" and then i make myself panic by panicking about it. so life is so hard just now, really really hard. i just got married last year, and up until 2 months ago, i was a closet panicker!! not even my husband knew, i just made excuses why i couldnt go certain places etc for what feels like my whole life.
some days im determined its not goingt o beat me, other days the fight is too hard.
ive found this site great so far and i hope it will really help me. i am a christian and find comfort in praying about it, but the fear takes over most of the time x
im laura, im 26 and im married with 2 children. i have suffered with anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia since i was a teen.
i had one major episode of about a year or 2 when i was at uni, and was on anti-ds which helped but it has always been with me, and has now come back with avengence since my second child was born 3 months ago.
i dont worry about not being able to breathe/dying and all the physical things anymore, cause of the internet i have managed to find that really nothing physically wrong can happen to me....altho, and i find this so much worse, this time i focus on the mental things...i am convinced i will lose my mind, go crazy, forget my name, and have visions of myself in a mental hospital and ive failed my children so much. i have problems going anywhere, i mean i force myself to go, but always think "what if i panic" and then i make myself panic by panicking about it. so life is so hard just now, really really hard. i just got married last year, and up until 2 months ago, i was a closet panicker!! not even my husband knew, i just made excuses why i couldnt go certain places etc for what feels like my whole life.
some days im determined its not goingt o beat me, other days the fight is too hard.
ive found this site great so far and i hope it will really help me. i am a christian and find comfort in praying about it, but the fear takes over most of the time x