becs
22-09-08, 11:38
i am really trying to cope with this illness but its getting me down i feel like its a constant struggle to fight against it i have had a busy few days having family over i am finding it difficiut to know what to do for the best do i keep trying carry on and see people this is hard even small talk feels so hard i cant concentrate feel absent minded and so self consious worried what people think especially because i am off work , i cant beleive the other day someone asked where i live and i forgot the name of the street it really hurt trying to find the answer in my brain this really scares me, what if this stays with me , what if i never get better , i know i have to stop this negative mind chatter but its so hard just want to be back to normal and get through a day without worrying , feel over sensitive too . on the other hand do i hide away from people and do as little as possible and just care for the children .
the other thing is i feel like the last two weeks have been a year this drags ,time seems to stand still , does anyone else feels this .
i am on 10 mg citralapram and seeing my gp tomorrow got a feeling he is going to say increase the dose to 20 mg , but dont know if i can do that feel bad as it is dont want to feel worse from the side effects which i have had before .
the other thing is i feel the same as i did when i first started these meds but i dont cry i suppose i am feeling a little calmer but before when i cried it was almost a release feel almost emotionless now .
i am feeling cross now too why is this happening to me just want to get on with life and enjoy it to be able to work and enjoy my family and not find every day simple things so hard , its hard to say above water .:huh:
the other thing is i feel like the last two weeks have been a year this drags ,time seems to stand still , does anyone else feels this .
i am on 10 mg citralapram and seeing my gp tomorrow got a feeling he is going to say increase the dose to 20 mg , but dont know if i can do that feel bad as it is dont want to feel worse from the side effects which i have had before .
the other thing is i feel the same as i did when i first started these meds but i dont cry i suppose i am feeling a little calmer but before when i cried it was almost a release feel almost emotionless now .
i am feeling cross now too why is this happening to me just want to get on with life and enjoy it to be able to work and enjoy my family and not find every day simple things so hard , its hard to say above water .:huh: