helenclaire
22-09-08, 12:16
Well i am sat here now feeling totally useless and really upset.
I had an appointment for a blood test this morning, as i have been having a couple of problems and needed my thyroid and hormone levels checked.
I have been putting if off as i hate going places, and find the doctors especially difficult, i think its because it is always busy and hot in there, it makes me feel ill, and i feel trapped.
Anyway i have been talking myself into it all morning, telling myself i need to do it for the sake of my health and i did actually get as far as the car park, but then i felt so sick, i just couldn't go in.
I know its stupid and i have to do it but i feel so bad i cannot face it.
Now of course i am upset and scared as i will have to try again, and to make matters worse i start a new job tomorrow and now i am worried that i will feel too bad to go there as well.
I just cannot see a way around it, how do you force yourself to do these things when you feel so bad, i need to have the blood test to find out what is going on but i cannot face getting it done. It sounds crazy but i feel like i am stuck in a hole with nobody to help me out.
I have been waiting to see the councillor for 7 months now, but i could do with help right now.
Sorry for the rant, feeling sorry for myself.
:weep:
I had an appointment for a blood test this morning, as i have been having a couple of problems and needed my thyroid and hormone levels checked.
I have been putting if off as i hate going places, and find the doctors especially difficult, i think its because it is always busy and hot in there, it makes me feel ill, and i feel trapped.
Anyway i have been talking myself into it all morning, telling myself i need to do it for the sake of my health and i did actually get as far as the car park, but then i felt so sick, i just couldn't go in.
I know its stupid and i have to do it but i feel so bad i cannot face it.
Now of course i am upset and scared as i will have to try again, and to make matters worse i start a new job tomorrow and now i am worried that i will feel too bad to go there as well.
I just cannot see a way around it, how do you force yourself to do these things when you feel so bad, i need to have the blood test to find out what is going on but i cannot face getting it done. It sounds crazy but i feel like i am stuck in a hole with nobody to help me out.
I have been waiting to see the councillor for 7 months now, but i could do with help right now.
Sorry for the rant, feeling sorry for myself.
:weep: