Lydie
22-09-08, 12:27
Ive sufferd from depersonisation derealisation manic depression for around a year and a half,
It all started because i had a very bad reaction to cannabiss.
From febuary this year up until a few days ago id felt better than i ever have i was off medication and feeling great and had almost forgotten how terifying dp/dr are.
I went to one of my friends partys on sataday,
and i went outside for some air and there were about 10people all sharing a joint and as soon as a smelt it i went into a huge panic attack,
id hugged one of the guys smoking it and conviced myself it had gotten into my system.
I went outside to sit down and started hyperventilating,
dry mouth,paranoia and i knew what was happening id been through before and it had caused me months of awful awful dp/dr deperesion.
I tried so hard to make it stop and in the end i had to leave because i started hallucinating from fear.
I went to bed that night and couldnt sleep for hours because i was so dizzy,
i woke up the next morning and felt the dp/drcome back so strong and i just cried and cried all day.
Its monday now and its still here,
but ive got throught this before.
can i do it again?
Please somone give me some advice,
i feel so alone.
It all started because i had a very bad reaction to cannabiss.
From febuary this year up until a few days ago id felt better than i ever have i was off medication and feeling great and had almost forgotten how terifying dp/dr are.
I went to one of my friends partys on sataday,
and i went outside for some air and there were about 10people all sharing a joint and as soon as a smelt it i went into a huge panic attack,
id hugged one of the guys smoking it and conviced myself it had gotten into my system.
I went outside to sit down and started hyperventilating,
dry mouth,paranoia and i knew what was happening id been through before and it had caused me months of awful awful dp/dr deperesion.
I tried so hard to make it stop and in the end i had to leave because i started hallucinating from fear.
I went to bed that night and couldnt sleep for hours because i was so dizzy,
i woke up the next morning and felt the dp/drcome back so strong and i just cried and cried all day.
Its monday now and its still here,
but ive got throught this before.
can i do it again?
Please somone give me some advice,
i feel so alone.