Natural Mystic
22-09-08, 14:52
Hello everyone,
I am a 40 year young single working mum of 1 child. I have always been known as the strong confident one (though it's often a misconception at times that we could never possible be weak, or ill, cos we are so strong). In December last year I was diagnosed with a malignant melanoma (suspicious mole) and they promised me that they'd had gotten it all, that I was clear (still I'd need monitoring for several years).
Anyway, in January this year (just after my second op) I had the weirdest of sensations, at home late at night. I now believe these to be anxiety attacks but looking back I think I've seen signs for several years). My symptoms are shortness of breath, chest pains, diarrea (sp sorry), heart thumping out of my chest, dizziness, weakness and vomiting (though not all at the same time).
When I'm having these sensations nothing can convince me that I'm not dying and I think it's worse because I live alone with my son. My worst fear is dying and leaving him (he has no father), of him having to find me dead (he's 7). I went through a stage that I was having a hearattack, brain tumor (a neighbour died suddenly from a brain tumor (she was 38) a couple of years ago. However what I am paniking about now is that I still have the cancer, that it must have spread, I cannot imagine why I'd just vomit over and over late at night (this happens about once a week, the sensation and the vomiting). Mostly I live 24 with a severe tense feeling in my chest and am living on beta blockers.
I've waffled haven't I?
Is it normal with anxiety to vomit like this? Am I going out of my mind? I have really good days and nights, then seem to fall down a dark deep hole again, such as the past few days. My son is only 7 and I'm so worried that it's affecting him, because this "illness" really is ruling my life.
I did tell my doctor the other week that I was waiting for the voices :roflmao:
Just hoping to speak to others like me, to know I'm not alone!
I am a 40 year young single working mum of 1 child. I have always been known as the strong confident one (though it's often a misconception at times that we could never possible be weak, or ill, cos we are so strong). In December last year I was diagnosed with a malignant melanoma (suspicious mole) and they promised me that they'd had gotten it all, that I was clear (still I'd need monitoring for several years).
Anyway, in January this year (just after my second op) I had the weirdest of sensations, at home late at night. I now believe these to be anxiety attacks but looking back I think I've seen signs for several years). My symptoms are shortness of breath, chest pains, diarrea (sp sorry), heart thumping out of my chest, dizziness, weakness and vomiting (though not all at the same time).
When I'm having these sensations nothing can convince me that I'm not dying and I think it's worse because I live alone with my son. My worst fear is dying and leaving him (he has no father), of him having to find me dead (he's 7). I went through a stage that I was having a hearattack, brain tumor (a neighbour died suddenly from a brain tumor (she was 38) a couple of years ago. However what I am paniking about now is that I still have the cancer, that it must have spread, I cannot imagine why I'd just vomit over and over late at night (this happens about once a week, the sensation and the vomiting). Mostly I live 24 with a severe tense feeling in my chest and am living on beta blockers.
I've waffled haven't I?
Is it normal with anxiety to vomit like this? Am I going out of my mind? I have really good days and nights, then seem to fall down a dark deep hole again, such as the past few days. My son is only 7 and I'm so worried that it's affecting him, because this "illness" really is ruling my life.
I did tell my doctor the other week that I was waiting for the voices :roflmao:
Just hoping to speak to others like me, to know I'm not alone!