vanilla
23-09-08, 11:52
hi...im new here
21yr old girl, from devon....just think im broken
i feel like i was running out of options and so went back online to find some kind of support network,, as i dont really have any
i always think i can do this on my own, i think i need to admit that i need some help..
i just decided to breakup with my boyfriend of 2 years, he was very unsupportive and didnt really do anything to help me
this was more of..the topping on the cake and i know i need to get healthy now
, my dad(my rock) died of cancer, my sister is back at uni and never see her, and me and my mother have a horridly abusive destrctive relationship and so iv decieded to do the scaryest thing , and move out alone to stop this circle going on and on and on.
iv had ongoing problems seems like all my life its been about 5 years now, anxiety,depression,pannic,eating disorder,berievment,sleeping problems..
i drink alot so i can go out(used to take drugs too but i knew it makes me worse,) everyone i know doeant know about this side of my life and im scared to tel poeple.....they all think im a crazy wild child
i dont even know
i just feel like im shutting down and im scared ...i feel very lost
i just wanted to find someone or something i could connect with as i dont know anyone who understands the lonelyness of such a disability that no one ever knows about, or considers to be a real problem.
i feel a little...exposed now but i know i should just say this
as im sure alot of you are in simular places
anyone that wants to talk,
hit me up
thanks
xx
21yr old girl, from devon....just think im broken
i feel like i was running out of options and so went back online to find some kind of support network,, as i dont really have any
i always think i can do this on my own, i think i need to admit that i need some help..
i just decided to breakup with my boyfriend of 2 years, he was very unsupportive and didnt really do anything to help me
this was more of..the topping on the cake and i know i need to get healthy now
, my dad(my rock) died of cancer, my sister is back at uni and never see her, and me and my mother have a horridly abusive destrctive relationship and so iv decieded to do the scaryest thing , and move out alone to stop this circle going on and on and on.
iv had ongoing problems seems like all my life its been about 5 years now, anxiety,depression,pannic,eating disorder,berievment,sleeping problems..
i drink alot so i can go out(used to take drugs too but i knew it makes me worse,) everyone i know doeant know about this side of my life and im scared to tel poeple.....they all think im a crazy wild child
i dont even know
i just feel like im shutting down and im scared ...i feel very lost
i just wanted to find someone or something i could connect with as i dont know anyone who understands the lonelyness of such a disability that no one ever knows about, or considers to be a real problem.
i feel a little...exposed now but i know i should just say this
as im sure alot of you are in simular places
anyone that wants to talk,
hit me up
thanks
xx