pinkpiglet
24-09-08, 15:17
I recently went back to work after spending two years at home with my baby. I opted for evening work as it suits us better for childcare and we don't have to depend too much on family to look after our little boy. However i do have to drop him off with family at 3.30pm and then my partner picks him up around 6pm when he finishes work. Another reason for working evenings was so that i can spend my day with my little boy and we could do things together. It's not quite turned out that way though. I spend all day anxious and wound up, knowing that i am going to have to leave him in the evening. It doesnt help that he cries and clings to me and i can hear him shouting after me. It hurts so much as he is a happy and confident little boy but he now fears me leaving the room. He has become so clingy. One afternoon a week he goes to nursery for five hours and he screams and screams when i leave him. I get myself into such a state on the days that i am working and it makes me feel ill (health anxiety). I know that it will do him good to spend time apart from me but i think he realises that he isnt going to see me until the next day (as he is in bed when i get home) and i hate for him to think i am neglecting him. We end up spending our days sat around doing nothing as i can only think about how it will be when i leave him. Grrrrrrr, i am so annoyed with myself as i feel like i waste 4 days of the week. As anyone got any advice or can you simply give me a kick up the bum....................thanks!