bekkie08
24-09-08, 21:48
hi ive found this website after doing some persoanl research on the mental health act regarding anorexia....
i am 26 years old a mum a wife,and anorexic 5 months PP...i have 2 big fears well 3, dirt/untydiness/cleanlyness- aka ocd, fear of food-aka 13 years with an eating disorder and fear of failing my daughter.
ive self harmed since i was 13 years old the same length of time ive had some kind of problematic eating pattern,bulimia,anorexia and also diagnosed purge type anorexia.
i really stuggled to eat whilst i was pregnant but i did it and brought in a beautifl little girl and i swore to myself i wouldnt go back to it, but slowly but surely int he last 3 weeks(since i stopped nursing my daughter) ive crept back and my BMI is down to 16.8. so my fear of failing lil one is huge, but at the same time i can not put the food in my mouth.
my CPN has declared if i go to low she will have to become involved and im not sure if this is if it becomes chronic, which im sure it is b/c she was talking about me being sctioned or using it as a scare tactic,either way im pretty p****d with her for this.
i am due to start cbt in 4 weeks, if i can get child care sorted out and i really dont want to go into my past as right now on sertraline i can cope, i can handle it without drinking or cutting, oh yes i also am 2 years sober after becoming alcohol dependent,detoxing 7 times both at home and hopsitals and nearly losing everything..
the mental health team dont think im mental, but they dont think im well either?
but now my doctor is involved infact he wouldnt let me wait 3 weeks to see my psychiatrist for meds he put me straight on them and is weighing me too, i have to go backa week on friday again to be weighed and to see how i am doing on the sertraline..... right now i feel low and i woul really appreciate some friendly people have some kind of understanding just to wave and make me feel like im *normal*
bekkie.x:flowers:
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i am 26 years old a mum a wife,and anorexic 5 months PP...i have 2 big fears well 3, dirt/untydiness/cleanlyness- aka ocd, fear of food-aka 13 years with an eating disorder and fear of failing my daughter.
ive self harmed since i was 13 years old the same length of time ive had some kind of problematic eating pattern,bulimia,anorexia and also diagnosed purge type anorexia.
i really stuggled to eat whilst i was pregnant but i did it and brought in a beautifl little girl and i swore to myself i wouldnt go back to it, but slowly but surely int he last 3 weeks(since i stopped nursing my daughter) ive crept back and my BMI is down to 16.8. so my fear of failing lil one is huge, but at the same time i can not put the food in my mouth.
my CPN has declared if i go to low she will have to become involved and im not sure if this is if it becomes chronic, which im sure it is b/c she was talking about me being sctioned or using it as a scare tactic,either way im pretty p****d with her for this.
i am due to start cbt in 4 weeks, if i can get child care sorted out and i really dont want to go into my past as right now on sertraline i can cope, i can handle it without drinking or cutting, oh yes i also am 2 years sober after becoming alcohol dependent,detoxing 7 times both at home and hopsitals and nearly losing everything..
the mental health team dont think im mental, but they dont think im well either?
but now my doctor is involved infact he wouldnt let me wait 3 weeks to see my psychiatrist for meds he put me straight on them and is weighing me too, i have to go backa week on friday again to be weighed and to see how i am doing on the sertraline..... right now i feel low and i woul really appreciate some friendly people have some kind of understanding just to wave and make me feel like im *normal*
bekkie.x:flowers:
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