becs
25-09-08, 18:29
i,ve had a good day today went to aqua aerobics this morning then had a indian head massage was really nice to do things for myself , however been worying about work i feel guilty about being off sick but the thought of returning makes me panic , i worry that i wont be able to concentrate that i wont be able to care or support the women in my care the thought of feeling the immense responsilbility is so dauting .
however a part of me feels i have to go back because i know the longer i leave it and avoid it the harder it will be .
i feel so self consious on what my work colleagues must think , constantly worried they will see me out at asda or something
most of all i worry about experiencing the physical symptoms at work so tired too , i feel like it would be dangerous for me to practice as a midwife , i know i need to give this time .
does it just get to the point where one day you wake up and feeel normal
i am almost findind it easier not to socialise too , dont have to try hard at conversation dont really feel i would be a great friend at the moment but i worry that i will end up with nobody sometimes i avoid talking to my husband about it too dont want to go on and on
does anyone else find it easier to cope alone
however a part of me feels i have to go back because i know the longer i leave it and avoid it the harder it will be .
i feel so self consious on what my work colleagues must think , constantly worried they will see me out at asda or something
most of all i worry about experiencing the physical symptoms at work so tired too , i feel like it would be dangerous for me to practice as a midwife , i know i need to give this time .
does it just get to the point where one day you wake up and feeel normal
i am almost findind it easier not to socialise too , dont have to try hard at conversation dont really feel i would be a great friend at the moment but i worry that i will end up with nobody sometimes i avoid talking to my husband about it too dont want to go on and on
does anyone else find it easier to cope alone