HayleyGoodwin08
26-09-08, 08:51
Hey everyone, first off I'm new to this site and I want to say a big hello to everyone =D
Now this is how my anxiey disorder happened...
At 14, I tragically lost my parents and younger brother from a car crash, while I was at my Grandmother's at the time. After the funeral, I started to feel constantly worried all the time and I'd wake up throwing up bile and constantly shaking, I had absolutely no control of this feeling, the constant throwing up made me feel drained and tired and it has affected my college and job as I keep having to go to the toilet.
The fears were so great that during the night I'd wake up screaming and feeling depressed, and when that happens I keep awake all through the night. I've also dramatically lost a huge amount of weight but the fear and throwing up made me lose my apetite in food. I've been to the doctors a lot of times as I desperately wanted this feeling to go away. The doctor kept subscribing me to Valium and Benzodiazepines (to help me sleep), which hasn't really done much for me I'm still pretty much the same everyday. I've been counselling for my anxiety and that hasn't done me any good too. 2 years I've suffered with this anxiety problem and I'm feeling more and more on the verge of ending my life, I look green/pasty white with bags under my eyes from lack of sleep (I look about 35 rather than 16), the anxiety is too great for me too handle, I just hope that one day a doctor will cure me, and I can get back to the way I was. I also feel for my Grandmother after all she's done for me, when my parents died she vowed to look after me and she has been like a mother/father figure to me these past 2 years. I love her with all my heart. Thanks for everything you've done for me. I love you xXx
Now this is how my anxiey disorder happened...
At 14, I tragically lost my parents and younger brother from a car crash, while I was at my Grandmother's at the time. After the funeral, I started to feel constantly worried all the time and I'd wake up throwing up bile and constantly shaking, I had absolutely no control of this feeling, the constant throwing up made me feel drained and tired and it has affected my college and job as I keep having to go to the toilet.
The fears were so great that during the night I'd wake up screaming and feeling depressed, and when that happens I keep awake all through the night. I've also dramatically lost a huge amount of weight but the fear and throwing up made me lose my apetite in food. I've been to the doctors a lot of times as I desperately wanted this feeling to go away. The doctor kept subscribing me to Valium and Benzodiazepines (to help me sleep), which hasn't really done much for me I'm still pretty much the same everyday. I've been counselling for my anxiety and that hasn't done me any good too. 2 years I've suffered with this anxiety problem and I'm feeling more and more on the verge of ending my life, I look green/pasty white with bags under my eyes from lack of sleep (I look about 35 rather than 16), the anxiety is too great for me too handle, I just hope that one day a doctor will cure me, and I can get back to the way I was. I also feel for my Grandmother after all she's done for me, when my parents died she vowed to look after me and she has been like a mother/father figure to me these past 2 years. I love her with all my heart. Thanks for everything you've done for me. I love you xXx