dotty
29-09-08, 09:39
Hi all,
Just looking for some reassurance really. Have been suffering from bouts of anxiety since a miscarriage last year. Think it all boils down to the loss of control thing for me! Anyway, have had counselling and stuff which has really helped but I find I go though 'blips' and I'm having a blip! I'm finding I'm getting really anxious about committing suicide. Let me be clear..I don't want to! I don't want to die! Death is one of my biggest fears and really makes me anxious... that's the irony in all this! I don't want to do it.. but I just think about it a lot in terms of what it actually is and what makes people do it and makes me scared that I'll get to that point. So what I'm actually anxious about is a fear I have of doing it.. if you see what I mean??!
I get anxious that my anxiety will boil up so much that I'll get really fed up and try and do something stupid... like my body will take over and do it without me knowing.. if that makes sense?!! I just find my mind wonders on to thinking about it without it wanting to and I then I get anxious that i've thought about it again and then I get worried tha'ts the start of me going mad and I will do it... that somehow I won't be able to stop myself...
arrraggghh.. does anyone know what I mean?? I'm just so sick of the constant whirring of thought... everytime I actually not thinking about it, I almost make myself think about it! And then it worries me and I get all the anxious feelings and well... it's just a horrid little circle!
anyone know what i mean or have any tips for combatting it?!!
thanks
Dotty
Just looking for some reassurance really. Have been suffering from bouts of anxiety since a miscarriage last year. Think it all boils down to the loss of control thing for me! Anyway, have had counselling and stuff which has really helped but I find I go though 'blips' and I'm having a blip! I'm finding I'm getting really anxious about committing suicide. Let me be clear..I don't want to! I don't want to die! Death is one of my biggest fears and really makes me anxious... that's the irony in all this! I don't want to do it.. but I just think about it a lot in terms of what it actually is and what makes people do it and makes me scared that I'll get to that point. So what I'm actually anxious about is a fear I have of doing it.. if you see what I mean??!
I get anxious that my anxiety will boil up so much that I'll get really fed up and try and do something stupid... like my body will take over and do it without me knowing.. if that makes sense?!! I just find my mind wonders on to thinking about it without it wanting to and I then I get anxious that i've thought about it again and then I get worried tha'ts the start of me going mad and I will do it... that somehow I won't be able to stop myself...
arrraggghh.. does anyone know what I mean?? I'm just so sick of the constant whirring of thought... everytime I actually not thinking about it, I almost make myself think about it! And then it worries me and I get all the anxious feelings and well... it's just a horrid little circle!
anyone know what i mean or have any tips for combatting it?!!
thanks
Dotty