AntiLove_SuperStar
30-09-08, 22:44
This is a weird one. Well, it might not be, but I havn't read about it anywhere.
Essentially, I keep contemplating/meditating on "Time". How fast, or slow, it goes. This is nothing new to either scientists or non-scientists of course, we all know that time goes faster when you're enjoying yourself, and not when you're bored at work, for example.
But I keep obsessively thinking things like
"Wow, time seems so fluid, am I going mad?"
"Wow, it feels like tomorrow I'll be ninety at this rate, today has gone so quickly!"
Or the opposite..
"I honestly feel daunted at all the years ahead"
"How long will I keep patience with life?!?"
and generally..
"I'm doing THIS now...this morning I did THAT..and now it's all gone! Time...whoa"..
Honest, I've never done any kind of recreation drug. I do read a lot of Buddhist philosophy and have a tendency towards depression and HIGH anxiety, if that tells anyone anything?
Maybe it's related to one of my biggest anxieties..."I'm wasting my life!"
But it's so scary, feel like I'm losing life faster than other people :scared15: Am I going mad? Am I simply anxious? Do I just goddamn THINK TOO MUCH!?! (I have a new obsession every so often, it feels like)
Essentially, I keep contemplating/meditating on "Time". How fast, or slow, it goes. This is nothing new to either scientists or non-scientists of course, we all know that time goes faster when you're enjoying yourself, and not when you're bored at work, for example.
But I keep obsessively thinking things like
"Wow, time seems so fluid, am I going mad?"
"Wow, it feels like tomorrow I'll be ninety at this rate, today has gone so quickly!"
Or the opposite..
"I honestly feel daunted at all the years ahead"
"How long will I keep patience with life?!?"
and generally..
"I'm doing THIS now...this morning I did THAT..and now it's all gone! Time...whoa"..
Honest, I've never done any kind of recreation drug. I do read a lot of Buddhist philosophy and have a tendency towards depression and HIGH anxiety, if that tells anyone anything?
Maybe it's related to one of my biggest anxieties..."I'm wasting my life!"
But it's so scary, feel like I'm losing life faster than other people :scared15: Am I going mad? Am I simply anxious? Do I just goddamn THINK TOO MUCH!?! (I have a new obsession every so often, it feels like)