mlondon
02-10-08, 09:54
Two weeks ago I was planning to go to University and me and my boyfriend were planning to move in November. He had been off with me for a few days. I was having panic attacks regularly but I was controlling them. Then my boyfriend broke up with me. We had lived together for almost 3 years and been known each other for 10 years. Whilst I knew things weren't great I didn't expect him to end it.
This was 2 weeks ago and he hasn't been in touch since, though I have called him a couple of times. The first week after was a blur, that night I packed a bag of things and left my flat not to return again. My friends collected the rest of my belongings which are currently scattered between 4 houses. I lived between friends houses for a week. Then another friend of mine gave me her keys and I moved into her mum's room. She and her mum are currently away.
Now I can't eat, have fitful sleep, can't concentrate on anything, don't feel like talking and don't feel like doing anything much. I just about manage to get myself into work which is part time. I spent last night on my own in my friends house and had the worst nightmare. It felt so real, I dreamt I was trapped in her house, people were standing at her door and I couldn't find my phone or the light switch. I managed to wake up out of it and called my mum then I went back to sleep.
The dream felt so close to reality I felt like I wasn't sure what was and wasn't real. This really scares me. I feel like a reck today, exhausted and not really with it. I am terrified of everything.
Help....
This was 2 weeks ago and he hasn't been in touch since, though I have called him a couple of times. The first week after was a blur, that night I packed a bag of things and left my flat not to return again. My friends collected the rest of my belongings which are currently scattered between 4 houses. I lived between friends houses for a week. Then another friend of mine gave me her keys and I moved into her mum's room. She and her mum are currently away.
Now I can't eat, have fitful sleep, can't concentrate on anything, don't feel like talking and don't feel like doing anything much. I just about manage to get myself into work which is part time. I spent last night on my own in my friends house and had the worst nightmare. It felt so real, I dreamt I was trapped in her house, people were standing at her door and I couldn't find my phone or the light switch. I managed to wake up out of it and called my mum then I went back to sleep.
The dream felt so close to reality I felt like I wasn't sure what was and wasn't real. This really scares me. I feel like a reck today, exhausted and not really with it. I am terrified of everything.
Help....