this_grey_dove
29-05-05, 17:03
...well it's been a while since I've been on this site, I've been sorting my life out but I've just realised that it's starting to backfire on me!...for months I was feeling so much betta, I felt like I was cured. i was @ college, got myself a part-time job, was going out drinkin/clubbing/partying etc like the gd old days...but suddenly summer has started which=3 months of free time on my hands. normally i'd be delighted to be able to relax and do nothing all ova summer, but this year I'm sh*t scared. i can already feel the anxiety creeping bck and I've only been off for 2 days!!...the only way I can deal with it is thro drinking myself stupid. eg friday-was drinking from 10am-2am the following morning!...I've been told I'm doing a hell of a lot of damage 2 my body which makes me even more panicky. I'm only 18 yrs old + I dont want 2 b spending the next 3 months drinking myself in 2 the ground coz theres no otha way 2 escape from my head.
Not quite sure why I'm posting this, I guess it may make me feel betta 2 get rid of some of my worries. any suggestions would be helpful :-s
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Not quite sure why I'm posting this, I guess it may make me feel betta 2 get rid of some of my worries. any suggestions would be helpful :-s
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