RichardW
06-10-08, 09:33
Hi, I'm a newbie, and currently going through a really bad patch. I've always been an anxious person for as long as I know, and I remember going through a very bad spell when I was a teenager. Since then its been mostly controllable up until the last few years.
It started with a diagnosis of IBS. However I was getting severe stomach pains on a night, and I wasn't convinced. I had to keep on at the GP for a couple of years before they finally sent me for an ultrasound, where it was identified as gallstones. I had my gallbladder out and seemed to get back to normal.
That was until the pain started again. This was diagnosed as retained gallstones - i.e.. they'd left some in my bile duct. This had to be fixed with an operation called an ERCP, and unfortunately that gave me pancreatitis, which is an awful condition. I recovered, and seemed to be doing fine.
A year on, however, and I'm not doing fine. I am in a cycle where I lose weight, then have to have antibiotics which cures me for 3 months, before I lose weight again. The doctors don't seem to have a clue. I'm at my wits end, and everyday I just dwell on it and my mind churns away. I'm losing more and more weight, and I think a lot of that is because I'm running at 100% all the time, I can't relax.
The GP has put me on Citalopram, but so far that's just making things worse and I can't sleep. Every morning I wake up and as soon as I do I feel this awful empty feeling and start to get nervy again.
I feel weak and pathetic. I don't know what to try. I've tried reflexology. I used to play sports, but my stomach problems have stopped that. Unfortunately I have a job where I have a lot of time to allow my brain to wander, which isn't good. I know if I'm occupied I'm usually a lot better.
If nothing else, its been nice to put these thoughts down, thanks.
It started with a diagnosis of IBS. However I was getting severe stomach pains on a night, and I wasn't convinced. I had to keep on at the GP for a couple of years before they finally sent me for an ultrasound, where it was identified as gallstones. I had my gallbladder out and seemed to get back to normal.
That was until the pain started again. This was diagnosed as retained gallstones - i.e.. they'd left some in my bile duct. This had to be fixed with an operation called an ERCP, and unfortunately that gave me pancreatitis, which is an awful condition. I recovered, and seemed to be doing fine.
A year on, however, and I'm not doing fine. I am in a cycle where I lose weight, then have to have antibiotics which cures me for 3 months, before I lose weight again. The doctors don't seem to have a clue. I'm at my wits end, and everyday I just dwell on it and my mind churns away. I'm losing more and more weight, and I think a lot of that is because I'm running at 100% all the time, I can't relax.
The GP has put me on Citalopram, but so far that's just making things worse and I can't sleep. Every morning I wake up and as soon as I do I feel this awful empty feeling and start to get nervy again.
I feel weak and pathetic. I don't know what to try. I've tried reflexology. I used to play sports, but my stomach problems have stopped that. Unfortunately I have a job where I have a lot of time to allow my brain to wander, which isn't good. I know if I'm occupied I'm usually a lot better.
If nothing else, its been nice to put these thoughts down, thanks.