clairep01
09-10-08, 11:24
Hi there, I am new to this site this week and was hoping for some re-assurance.
About a year ago i fainted unexpectedly and as a result suffered from panic attacks combined with depression following this (i am 28). I was put on Citalopram for this and also attended CBT training which helped a lot. Although things were awful to begin with, with agraphobia, etc things did eventually improve and were going great and I took it upon myself to reduce my dose from 20mg to 10mg (in July this year) for a month or so and then finally down to 0 on my own back. Because I was feeling so good about things I felt this was the right thing to do and my consultant wasnt one of these people that would encourage this so I didnt tell him. I am getting married next year and wanted to be clear from the drugs and anxiety way before this.
However since attending a client meeting about 3 weeks ago (the faint had happened at a client meeting) i have been having panic attacks on and off and basically getting myself into a right state that it is all happening again. Im now worried that I took myself off the pills too early, worried that I havent told the consultant, trying to keep this to myself as i dont want to worry everyone else again, and basically feel like crying every morning. This is also worrying me that it is depression too and also that I will also suffer from this for the rest of my life. Something I burst into tears just thinking about.
I have just booked up to see a therapist again, hopefully for some words of re-assurance but guess I was just hoping for some kind words from people that have been through the same. It always feels as bad as the first time round.
x x x x
About a year ago i fainted unexpectedly and as a result suffered from panic attacks combined with depression following this (i am 28). I was put on Citalopram for this and also attended CBT training which helped a lot. Although things were awful to begin with, with agraphobia, etc things did eventually improve and were going great and I took it upon myself to reduce my dose from 20mg to 10mg (in July this year) for a month or so and then finally down to 0 on my own back. Because I was feeling so good about things I felt this was the right thing to do and my consultant wasnt one of these people that would encourage this so I didnt tell him. I am getting married next year and wanted to be clear from the drugs and anxiety way before this.
However since attending a client meeting about 3 weeks ago (the faint had happened at a client meeting) i have been having panic attacks on and off and basically getting myself into a right state that it is all happening again. Im now worried that I took myself off the pills too early, worried that I havent told the consultant, trying to keep this to myself as i dont want to worry everyone else again, and basically feel like crying every morning. This is also worrying me that it is depression too and also that I will also suffer from this for the rest of my life. Something I burst into tears just thinking about.
I have just booked up to see a therapist again, hopefully for some words of re-assurance but guess I was just hoping for some kind words from people that have been through the same. It always feels as bad as the first time round.
x x x x