Sibarker
13-10-08, 00:57
Hello, firstly i've got to say i'm very happy i stumbled upon this site because i've been looking for an internet forum for anxiety and/or depression for a while now....
I am 19 years old and I have been suffering from anxiety and depression now for about 6 months, not very long at all in comparison to most people on this forum, to which i truly respect and admire. But anyway, my anxiety came about because of a strange drug trip, in which i had a massive panic attack as i had never been so scared and out of control in all my life. The worst part of it was that i had to ride through it and it lasted for a few hours. The next day and for about a week or so straight after i felt weird but it was fine i didnt think much of it. But as the weeks went on i started getting very paranoid and frightened that i might have given myself permanent brain damage or something and i just kept fearing that it might happen again and if it does then i would feel just as out of control as i did. Although deep down i know its impossible unless i take the drug again, but there is still that odd thought that makes me worry.
Prior to this incident i was a pretty happy-go-lucky guy, pretty straight forward and had a lot going for me. Although i did have a major fear of flying but thats another story i suppose.... Anyway yeah, after this experience it pretty much changed my life and the way i thought, it stoppes me now doing the things i want, i can barely drive without panicking, i find it hard to practise with my bands and fulfill my (what was once) an intense musical schedule. And i absolutely HATE being alone, as i start panicking that something might happen to me and i will go crazy etc etc. I recently left university as i could not stand to be away from home, and came back to do a course for next year at a local university....
So basically due to the anxiety i have it has changed my life and made me change what i want to do and where i'm heading, which makes me question overall whether i am actually in control of my life at all.....
But anyway, if anyone wants to get in contact by sending me a private message to talk or whatever and discuss each others issues, or even just for general banter then i would really appreciate that as it would make me feel well, not very alone haha :yesyes:.
So yeah has this sort of experience or traumatic life event happened to anyone else? I would love to hear your stories.....
Many thanks
I am 19 years old and I have been suffering from anxiety and depression now for about 6 months, not very long at all in comparison to most people on this forum, to which i truly respect and admire. But anyway, my anxiety came about because of a strange drug trip, in which i had a massive panic attack as i had never been so scared and out of control in all my life. The worst part of it was that i had to ride through it and it lasted for a few hours. The next day and for about a week or so straight after i felt weird but it was fine i didnt think much of it. But as the weeks went on i started getting very paranoid and frightened that i might have given myself permanent brain damage or something and i just kept fearing that it might happen again and if it does then i would feel just as out of control as i did. Although deep down i know its impossible unless i take the drug again, but there is still that odd thought that makes me worry.
Prior to this incident i was a pretty happy-go-lucky guy, pretty straight forward and had a lot going for me. Although i did have a major fear of flying but thats another story i suppose.... Anyway yeah, after this experience it pretty much changed my life and the way i thought, it stoppes me now doing the things i want, i can barely drive without panicking, i find it hard to practise with my bands and fulfill my (what was once) an intense musical schedule. And i absolutely HATE being alone, as i start panicking that something might happen to me and i will go crazy etc etc. I recently left university as i could not stand to be away from home, and came back to do a course for next year at a local university....
So basically due to the anxiety i have it has changed my life and made me change what i want to do and where i'm heading, which makes me question overall whether i am actually in control of my life at all.....
But anyway, if anyone wants to get in contact by sending me a private message to talk or whatever and discuss each others issues, or even just for general banter then i would really appreciate that as it would make me feel well, not very alone haha :yesyes:.
So yeah has this sort of experience or traumatic life event happened to anyone else? I would love to hear your stories.....
Many thanks