tigger1964
15-10-08, 07:22
hi,
its 7.07am and this is always the worse time of the day for me. I am very agitated this morning and trying so hard to control my breathing , i have the tingles in my hand and they are both horrible but the thing i hate more is the dryness in my mouth that makes me think my tounge is swollen, the sane part of me knows that these are all symptoms and if i concentrate on them the longer they will last. But if all this wasnt bad enough, i let a stranger, an outsider a fellow sufferer into my life so that we could help each other and now we have had a disagreement which i dont believe was my fault and i have spent all of yesterday worrying about it and had very little sleep last night because of this to. I feel that this person put me a very awkward position that i didnt deserve and then when i tried to inform them they got very shirty with me and now no longer will stay friends with me. I feel better for writing this and im sorry for ranting on. I dont have a lot of friends who understand me and how i am, infact i dont think any of my friends understand but they do try. I feel so sad this morning because of all this and i dont know if anyone else worries overly about things that have happened and just keep going over and over it. Maybe it was my fault it probably was it usually is. But now i feel alone again, really alone and its not a nice feeling.
its 7.07am and this is always the worse time of the day for me. I am very agitated this morning and trying so hard to control my breathing , i have the tingles in my hand and they are both horrible but the thing i hate more is the dryness in my mouth that makes me think my tounge is swollen, the sane part of me knows that these are all symptoms and if i concentrate on them the longer they will last. But if all this wasnt bad enough, i let a stranger, an outsider a fellow sufferer into my life so that we could help each other and now we have had a disagreement which i dont believe was my fault and i have spent all of yesterday worrying about it and had very little sleep last night because of this to. I feel that this person put me a very awkward position that i didnt deserve and then when i tried to inform them they got very shirty with me and now no longer will stay friends with me. I feel better for writing this and im sorry for ranting on. I dont have a lot of friends who understand me and how i am, infact i dont think any of my friends understand but they do try. I feel so sad this morning because of all this and i dont know if anyone else worries overly about things that have happened and just keep going over and over it. Maybe it was my fault it probably was it usually is. But now i feel alone again, really alone and its not a nice feeling.