swiffer61
16-10-08, 08:47
I apologise in advance, but I foresee a rather long post here. I don't know why I have such trouble accepting my doctor's diagnosis. He really is a great doctor (my mother-in-law has had cancer 4 times and also has MS ...and he diagnosed them all), but I'm just impossible. I've had pretty bad head pains and headaches for the past month. They are all over my head (forehead, temples, jaw, top of head, back of head, teeth, above and below ears). Some feel like nervy pain, and some are like stinging sensations above my eyes at the hairline on my forehead. Others are tender, sore, aching, sharp, or throbbing. My head feels so heavy on my neck and shoulders, and I often get rather dizzy with bright light or too loud sound. I also have pressure a lot around my eyes, in my ears, and in my cheeks. Honestly, it just feels like pressure everywhere.
The doc first told me I had a virus because my stomach was also bad, but now at the beginning of this week (3 weeks after having seen him before), he says I'm now having sinus problems and tension headaches. Double whammy he said (in a Dutch accent). He's told me to take steam 3 times a day and use Flixonase 2 times a day, so I am. And I'm quite sure he's right, but the anxiety in me keeps rearing its ugly head and constantly telling me it's something else, mainly an aneurysm. I'm afraid to have sex a lot because maybe it is an aneurysm and will pop, I don't go into the bathroom without my cell phone. I feel so stupid and I know my fiance is getting rather fed up with my doom-thinking, just as much as I am. I can't stand being alone ( I'm alone for the whole day as I'm currently unemployed). I just drive myself crazy and have anxiety and head problems all day, every day.
This isn't the first time I've suffered head problems. My doc sent me to a physio therapist back in 2007 because I was having frequent headaches which he said were due to tension caused by TMJ. The physio did help to some degree, especially in helping me be less anxious, and after about 3 months I stopped going to him and soon thereafter I got a job. But then the stress started up again. My mother-in-law was staying with us because she needed some care as she was diagnosed with lung cancer (which has thankfully been cleared).
I was also on Lexapro for a little more than a year while my fiance and I were in the process of finalizing my move here to the NL (I'm from America). Well, I weaned off just fine with my doctor's help, but then a few months later I became pregnant, was having a tough time at my job, and then I had a miscarriage back at the beginning of August. Since August, my anxiety has hit a very high point. The headaches scare me, my heartbeat in my belly scares me, my breasts are sore and lumpy due to hormonal imbalance and they scare me. Everything health-related honestly worries me. Almost every week I think I have something wrong with me, but for the most part, I fret most about having the problems with my head...
I'm just one big ball of stress now, looking for a new job,looking for a house, constantly feeling alone and like the nights and weekends with my fiance are just never enough. My shoulders are constantly to my ears, my neck is constantly sore or strained, I always catch myself clenching my jaw, and my headaches are just terrible.
Sorry for such a long post, but I really need to get it all out. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I just want to feel well again. It's not fair to my fiance to be such a nervous, sick wreck. I really hate myself, I feel like such a prisoner in my own body.
The doc first told me I had a virus because my stomach was also bad, but now at the beginning of this week (3 weeks after having seen him before), he says I'm now having sinus problems and tension headaches. Double whammy he said (in a Dutch accent). He's told me to take steam 3 times a day and use Flixonase 2 times a day, so I am. And I'm quite sure he's right, but the anxiety in me keeps rearing its ugly head and constantly telling me it's something else, mainly an aneurysm. I'm afraid to have sex a lot because maybe it is an aneurysm and will pop, I don't go into the bathroom without my cell phone. I feel so stupid and I know my fiance is getting rather fed up with my doom-thinking, just as much as I am. I can't stand being alone ( I'm alone for the whole day as I'm currently unemployed). I just drive myself crazy and have anxiety and head problems all day, every day.
This isn't the first time I've suffered head problems. My doc sent me to a physio therapist back in 2007 because I was having frequent headaches which he said were due to tension caused by TMJ. The physio did help to some degree, especially in helping me be less anxious, and after about 3 months I stopped going to him and soon thereafter I got a job. But then the stress started up again. My mother-in-law was staying with us because she needed some care as she was diagnosed with lung cancer (which has thankfully been cleared).
I was also on Lexapro for a little more than a year while my fiance and I were in the process of finalizing my move here to the NL (I'm from America). Well, I weaned off just fine with my doctor's help, but then a few months later I became pregnant, was having a tough time at my job, and then I had a miscarriage back at the beginning of August. Since August, my anxiety has hit a very high point. The headaches scare me, my heartbeat in my belly scares me, my breasts are sore and lumpy due to hormonal imbalance and they scare me. Everything health-related honestly worries me. Almost every week I think I have something wrong with me, but for the most part, I fret most about having the problems with my head...
I'm just one big ball of stress now, looking for a new job,looking for a house, constantly feeling alone and like the nights and weekends with my fiance are just never enough. My shoulders are constantly to my ears, my neck is constantly sore or strained, I always catch myself clenching my jaw, and my headaches are just terrible.
Sorry for such a long post, but I really need to get it all out. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I just want to feel well again. It's not fair to my fiance to be such a nervous, sick wreck. I really hate myself, I feel like such a prisoner in my own body.