soliveirap
16-10-08, 12:54
Well, i guess i allways was a bit anxious. I had a pretty tough childwood and i had to grow up fast and take care of mysel all alone.
I allways thought that mental problems where just a way of not dealing with the problems, untill it happened to me :roflmao:
All started 7 years ago when my son was born, i was still in the hospital when i had the 1st symptoms, swetting and trembling at the same time , i even thought i had a fever because of childbirth, but a nurse took my temperature and i was fine.
As the years gone by i was getting worse, sometimes i waked up in the midle onf the night swetting and trembling and afterwards my head hacked and i felt dizzy.
A year ago, when my son went to school for the 1st time it got really worse, with me having this symptoms all the time even during the day and when i couldnt take it anymore, when my lack of sleep started to get into my normal life, i went to a doctor and after several exams with everything normal i consulted a neurologist, wich diagnosed panic syndrome.
Now im on medication, i fell better, even my usband notices that, but im afraid that i get addicted to the meds and im avoid taking the sos med, but the doctor told me thats ok and that i can take the sos every time i fell different.
I guess that this is caused with the concern with my son, he's allways on my mind, im allways thinking if he's ok, if he had lunch, if he's not hurt, etc
A few weeks ago someone told me that there are two litle "criminals" in my sons school, that they where caugth with knives. That night i had a panic attack and couldnt sleep.
I've tryed to move him to another school but i coudnt get a place so im having trouble sleeping and it been had to get trought all of this but im hanging...
I want to be the best mother i can, i want my son to have a good life, but sometimes the guilt of not beeing good enough takes over me and i fell depressed.
And thats my story, sorry for a long testemony.
I allways thought that mental problems where just a way of not dealing with the problems, untill it happened to me :roflmao:
All started 7 years ago when my son was born, i was still in the hospital when i had the 1st symptoms, swetting and trembling at the same time , i even thought i had a fever because of childbirth, but a nurse took my temperature and i was fine.
As the years gone by i was getting worse, sometimes i waked up in the midle onf the night swetting and trembling and afterwards my head hacked and i felt dizzy.
A year ago, when my son went to school for the 1st time it got really worse, with me having this symptoms all the time even during the day and when i couldnt take it anymore, when my lack of sleep started to get into my normal life, i went to a doctor and after several exams with everything normal i consulted a neurologist, wich diagnosed panic syndrome.
Now im on medication, i fell better, even my usband notices that, but im afraid that i get addicted to the meds and im avoid taking the sos med, but the doctor told me thats ok and that i can take the sos every time i fell different.
I guess that this is caused with the concern with my son, he's allways on my mind, im allways thinking if he's ok, if he had lunch, if he's not hurt, etc
A few weeks ago someone told me that there are two litle "criminals" in my sons school, that they where caugth with knives. That night i had a panic attack and couldnt sleep.
I've tryed to move him to another school but i coudnt get a place so im having trouble sleeping and it been had to get trought all of this but im hanging...
I want to be the best mother i can, i want my son to have a good life, but sometimes the guilt of not beeing good enough takes over me and i fell depressed.
And thats my story, sorry for a long testemony.