Chelle1
16-10-08, 13:11
Hi everyone, :emot-wave:
I am so glad that i found this site. It is a big relief to know that there are other people out there with the same thoughts and feelings (symptoms) as me. I thought i was really wierd and going mental and that there was something really wrong with me mentally, after reading some of the posts on this site i have found that i have normal symptoms that i didnt realise were symptoms of panic disorder.
I was diagnosed with panic disorder about 5yrs ago and was prescibed Citalopram 20mg, after having awful panic attacks every time i was alone and especially when i had to go out alone. I thought I was dying. Some how after finding out it was "just" panic disorder it did seem to ease. I got on with life then really for about 2 years a little anxious but not panicky.
Then when i was pregnant with my second son i stopped taking Citalorpram and the panic came back. Again after a few months i started taking Citalorpram 10mg and the panic eased back to anxiety. I then got on with life again so i thought for another few months, i went back to work, had a great social life, was studying at college and thought life was great.
Then in March this year all of a sudden out of the blue i had about five panic attacks in one day and couldnt work out why, i kept thinking i would die, i worried about my children dying, my partner dying, the world ending, i thought i was absolutly crazy and was panicking the whole time for days on end. I had palpatations, pins and needles in my legs, dizzyness and disorientation. I stopped going out on my own, i couldnt even get to the doctors, i stopped going to work out with friends, stopped living all together really. I am now back on Citalorpram 20mg and have been offered 6 sessions of counselling of which i have already had 4. I dont really feel much better, i am not so panicky but am filled with dread of having a panic attack, i think i would say i am agrophobic as i do not go anywhere i really really dont need to. I will just about go to get my kids from school, but cant go to the doctors or dentist alone.
I have become deppressed about the whole thing now and am quite isolated by my own doing. I cant seem to get out of the pit.
Ps i am loving some of the comments on the end of peoples posts the one i like especially is the one where pooh bear and piglet are under a tree and pooh says suppose this tree fell on us and piglet replies "supposing it didnt". Thats fantastic, i have been trying to hold onto that thought since i read it, it seems to help as lots of my anxiety is caused by anxious "what if" thoughts so all i need to do is think "what if not" thoughts (easier said than done though).
Anyway thanks for reading and sorry its such a long one but that is basicly me and why im here. xxx
Chelle x
I am so glad that i found this site. It is a big relief to know that there are other people out there with the same thoughts and feelings (symptoms) as me. I thought i was really wierd and going mental and that there was something really wrong with me mentally, after reading some of the posts on this site i have found that i have normal symptoms that i didnt realise were symptoms of panic disorder.
I was diagnosed with panic disorder about 5yrs ago and was prescibed Citalopram 20mg, after having awful panic attacks every time i was alone and especially when i had to go out alone. I thought I was dying. Some how after finding out it was "just" panic disorder it did seem to ease. I got on with life then really for about 2 years a little anxious but not panicky.
Then when i was pregnant with my second son i stopped taking Citalorpram and the panic came back. Again after a few months i started taking Citalorpram 10mg and the panic eased back to anxiety. I then got on with life again so i thought for another few months, i went back to work, had a great social life, was studying at college and thought life was great.
Then in March this year all of a sudden out of the blue i had about five panic attacks in one day and couldnt work out why, i kept thinking i would die, i worried about my children dying, my partner dying, the world ending, i thought i was absolutly crazy and was panicking the whole time for days on end. I had palpatations, pins and needles in my legs, dizzyness and disorientation. I stopped going out on my own, i couldnt even get to the doctors, i stopped going to work out with friends, stopped living all together really. I am now back on Citalorpram 20mg and have been offered 6 sessions of counselling of which i have already had 4. I dont really feel much better, i am not so panicky but am filled with dread of having a panic attack, i think i would say i am agrophobic as i do not go anywhere i really really dont need to. I will just about go to get my kids from school, but cant go to the doctors or dentist alone.
I have become deppressed about the whole thing now and am quite isolated by my own doing. I cant seem to get out of the pit.
Ps i am loving some of the comments on the end of peoples posts the one i like especially is the one where pooh bear and piglet are under a tree and pooh says suppose this tree fell on us and piglet replies "supposing it didnt". Thats fantastic, i have been trying to hold onto that thought since i read it, it seems to help as lots of my anxiety is caused by anxious "what if" thoughts so all i need to do is think "what if not" thoughts (easier said than done though).
Anyway thanks for reading and sorry its such a long one but that is basicly me and why im here. xxx
Chelle x