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20-10-08, 23:19
Was diagnosed with depression in Feb 2007, started on Fluoxetine, GP played about with dosage then stopped it due to nasty side-effects. Went on to Sertraline upped dose, didn't work, changed to Lofepramine also didn't work.
In the mean time changed GP and found a very understanding doctor who has a special interest in mental health. Started on Citalopram 20mg in April this year. I almost didn't start the course as I had found some very useful info on the web and something called the 'learning path' which really helped me to understand, and I actually felt better for just reading it! I started the meds anyway and I continued with this dose until about 8 weeks ago when, sort of by accident, I began to take the dose on alternate days. I thought I was doing ok but after I hit rock bottom again about 2 weeks ago my boyfriend (who is also a sufferer) informed me I'd not been myself for a few weeks!!
It worries me that I can't see how bad I am and what others (paricularly my boyfriend) have to put up with. I went off sick from work (again) and am due back on wednesday after having 3 weeks off (luckily it fell at the time of some annual leave). I have been back to the daily dose since then.
My lack of understanding bothers me and I can't see the end or a life without antidepressants. I don't know if the tablets are working or what they are actually doing to me!
I have been feeling quite zombie like at times and like I can't feel anything. I don't seem to get excited or look forward to anything. Is that the depression or the antidepressants? I didn't even look forward to a week away on holiday and spent 2 days just feeling like crying! My sex drive is also at an all time low and I have put on a lot of weight.
I've been reading up about Citalopram and withdrawal on the internet. Part of me wants to just go cold turkey and get the meds out of my system as I've been reading the horror stories!! It seems that even if you stop them gradually you'll still get the withdrawal symptoms??
Aaaaahhhh!!!!!!!! I'm so confused. Seeing the GP tomorrow morning and I don't know what to say. He knows I hate the tablets but I'm so scared of doing the wrong thing. When I feel like this I just want to hide.
Think I should stop talking now!! Somebody help me, please....
In the mean time changed GP and found a very understanding doctor who has a special interest in mental health. Started on Citalopram 20mg in April this year. I almost didn't start the course as I had found some very useful info on the web and something called the 'learning path' which really helped me to understand, and I actually felt better for just reading it! I started the meds anyway and I continued with this dose until about 8 weeks ago when, sort of by accident, I began to take the dose on alternate days. I thought I was doing ok but after I hit rock bottom again about 2 weeks ago my boyfriend (who is also a sufferer) informed me I'd not been myself for a few weeks!!
It worries me that I can't see how bad I am and what others (paricularly my boyfriend) have to put up with. I went off sick from work (again) and am due back on wednesday after having 3 weeks off (luckily it fell at the time of some annual leave). I have been back to the daily dose since then.
My lack of understanding bothers me and I can't see the end or a life without antidepressants. I don't know if the tablets are working or what they are actually doing to me!
I have been feeling quite zombie like at times and like I can't feel anything. I don't seem to get excited or look forward to anything. Is that the depression or the antidepressants? I didn't even look forward to a week away on holiday and spent 2 days just feeling like crying! My sex drive is also at an all time low and I have put on a lot of weight.
I've been reading up about Citalopram and withdrawal on the internet. Part of me wants to just go cold turkey and get the meds out of my system as I've been reading the horror stories!! It seems that even if you stop them gradually you'll still get the withdrawal symptoms??
Aaaaahhhh!!!!!!!! I'm so confused. Seeing the GP tomorrow morning and I don't know what to say. He knows I hate the tablets but I'm so scared of doing the wrong thing. When I feel like this I just want to hide.
Think I should stop talking now!! Somebody help me, please....