thesalmon
21-10-08, 22:15
Or so i thought. Thank the lord I'm not!
I'm Gareth, I have quite severe panic disorder (or so it seems to me, I hate it) I have bad panic attacks that come from nowhere, the first two times it happened I've ended up in A&E because I thought I was going to die! The first time I was telling the friend who bought me to hospital to say his goodbyes. The second time a sweet old man helped me and I spent two days in Stafford hospital where they did all manner of tests including a chest X-ray, I've never been so scared in my life. They told me (quite rudely) that I was young and healthy and to stop being such a wimp and get on with it. Thanks! And that I probably get road rage or something. Which wasn't very helpful.
Now I know I'm not going to die I don't feel the need to go to hospital but the attacks are still quite bad and frequent, I'm on a high dosage of Propranolol which helps me to sleep (I lie awake thinking about stuff and singing songs to myself about death whilst my heart pounds in my chest and my head) and calms me down a bit but I'm still so damn tense all the time. It's rubbish!
Anyway, if you've read all that well done, hopefully I won't talk this much usually, just a bit skitty tonight.
Thanks.
Gareth.
I'm Gareth, I have quite severe panic disorder (or so it seems to me, I hate it) I have bad panic attacks that come from nowhere, the first two times it happened I've ended up in A&E because I thought I was going to die! The first time I was telling the friend who bought me to hospital to say his goodbyes. The second time a sweet old man helped me and I spent two days in Stafford hospital where they did all manner of tests including a chest X-ray, I've never been so scared in my life. They told me (quite rudely) that I was young and healthy and to stop being such a wimp and get on with it. Thanks! And that I probably get road rage or something. Which wasn't very helpful.
Now I know I'm not going to die I don't feel the need to go to hospital but the attacks are still quite bad and frequent, I'm on a high dosage of Propranolol which helps me to sleep (I lie awake thinking about stuff and singing songs to myself about death whilst my heart pounds in my chest and my head) and calms me down a bit but I'm still so damn tense all the time. It's rubbish!
Anyway, if you've read all that well done, hopefully I won't talk this much usually, just a bit skitty tonight.
Thanks.
Gareth.