SFAOK
06-06-05, 18:41
Hi there.
I've been suffering from some major anxiety lately following a fight with testicular cancer. Being 24 this came as a huge shock to me, as being my age we tend to think we are invicible or something.
Anyhow, I've pretty much had every symptom going. My biggest worry was a brain tumor. The cancer was caught and compeltely confined to the testicle, with all scans and tests coming back negative. I was given the all clear last week and put on a surveillence program, just in case.
But as I had some terrible symptoms (almost certainly anxiety related), it just sent me deeper and deeper into a spiral of self destruction.
Then I got a headache. Brain tumor. My logical brain kept saying - it was confined to the testicle. Even very advanced cases of this cancer rearly reach the brain! But oh no, the anxiety wouldn't agree to that sort of logic!
The symptoms that CONVINCED me I had a brain tumor include:
Week long headaches.First bout lasted for a week. Subsided after going to my doctor (tension headaches). Came back a week later when results were due. Milder but still present sometimes.
Dizzyness
DepersonalisationThe worst one. Horrible horrible thing.
Flashes of light when eyes are closed
Vision going blurry. Blinking solves it.
Heightened Flurescent light awareness
Couldn't walk straight. Drifted to the left all the time
Arm and Leg went all weak. On the SAME side. Subsided after a few days. The cancer specialist gave me a neurological exam and said there was no sign of anything wrong. Gave me Diazepam.
Hearing things in my head when almost asleep
Horrible gunshot type sound the moment I drift off to sleep.Happened twice. The worst symptom ever.
Now thanks to this wonderfull website, I now see the error of my ways. All of these symptoms can be explained by anxiety. Pitty I let myself get into such a mess. But alas, I'm getting better now (might just be the Valium [:P]).
And now we get to the point of this post! :D
Sometimes (once every two days or so), my vision will darken for a split second before returning to normal. Just like what happens in a house during a electricity drain from a shower being turned on or a storm outside. Now due to my anxiety I am hyper-aware of everything (a bird flying into the corner of my vision can give me a horrible shock sometimes), so I've attributed this vision darkening to me just being more aware of these type of electrical shorts.
But today I was watching TV with the lights off, but with enough light shining through the curtain so that I could see everything. And BAM! My vision darkened for a fraction of a second before returning to normal.
This is the only symptom I can't explain! Iits pretty much the last line of defence this horrible health anxiety trap I've found myself in has before I can kick the damn thing to the curb!
I would be very grateful for any help!
SFA.
EDIT : The only explination I can think of (if its not an anxiety symptom), is that perhaps a seagull or some other big bird flew past the window behind me, darkening the room for a second. Or perhaps I'm just going nuts! [:P]
I've been suffering from some major anxiety lately following a fight with testicular cancer. Being 24 this came as a huge shock to me, as being my age we tend to think we are invicible or something.
Anyhow, I've pretty much had every symptom going. My biggest worry was a brain tumor. The cancer was caught and compeltely confined to the testicle, with all scans and tests coming back negative. I was given the all clear last week and put on a surveillence program, just in case.
But as I had some terrible symptoms (almost certainly anxiety related), it just sent me deeper and deeper into a spiral of self destruction.
Then I got a headache. Brain tumor. My logical brain kept saying - it was confined to the testicle. Even very advanced cases of this cancer rearly reach the brain! But oh no, the anxiety wouldn't agree to that sort of logic!
The symptoms that CONVINCED me I had a brain tumor include:
Week long headaches.First bout lasted for a week. Subsided after going to my doctor (tension headaches). Came back a week later when results were due. Milder but still present sometimes.
Dizzyness
DepersonalisationThe worst one. Horrible horrible thing.
Flashes of light when eyes are closed
Vision going blurry. Blinking solves it.
Heightened Flurescent light awareness
Couldn't walk straight. Drifted to the left all the time
Arm and Leg went all weak. On the SAME side. Subsided after a few days. The cancer specialist gave me a neurological exam and said there was no sign of anything wrong. Gave me Diazepam.
Hearing things in my head when almost asleep
Horrible gunshot type sound the moment I drift off to sleep.Happened twice. The worst symptom ever.
Now thanks to this wonderfull website, I now see the error of my ways. All of these symptoms can be explained by anxiety. Pitty I let myself get into such a mess. But alas, I'm getting better now (might just be the Valium [:P]).
And now we get to the point of this post! :D
Sometimes (once every two days or so), my vision will darken for a split second before returning to normal. Just like what happens in a house during a electricity drain from a shower being turned on or a storm outside. Now due to my anxiety I am hyper-aware of everything (a bird flying into the corner of my vision can give me a horrible shock sometimes), so I've attributed this vision darkening to me just being more aware of these type of electrical shorts.
But today I was watching TV with the lights off, but with enough light shining through the curtain so that I could see everything. And BAM! My vision darkened for a fraction of a second before returning to normal.
This is the only symptom I can't explain! Iits pretty much the last line of defence this horrible health anxiety trap I've found myself in has before I can kick the damn thing to the curb!
I would be very grateful for any help!
SFA.
EDIT : The only explination I can think of (if its not an anxiety symptom), is that perhaps a seagull or some other big bird flew past the window behind me, darkening the room for a second. Or perhaps I'm just going nuts! [:P]