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24-10-08, 13:15
I thought I was doing ok..... but then had a complete meltdown on the way to work this morning.
I went back to work on Wednesday after some annual leave, didn't feel 100% but made it through the shift. Then today, was meant to be on a long day. Was all set to go, did cry before I went (not sure why - just a bit scared I spose), got in car, drove off and then just cried, and cried, and cried :weep:
Got 3/4 the way to work and after trying to calm myself down mainly by talking to myself which turned into frustrated shouting and screaming (thankful it was still dark!) I had to pull over.
I couldn't carry on. I couldn't see the road for a start! Phoned home and my boyfriend offered some soothing words. Luckily he was able to ring work for me and explain why I wasn't there. He said they were sympathetic and said I shouldn't worry and look after myself :weep: :weep:
I took my last Citalopram 20mg on Tuesday (doctor's orders) and thought I was doing ok. Didn't expect it to hit me this quick! I wouldn't say I'm totally broken again just yet. I'm ok. But i'm obviously not right??!!?
Feeling a bit better after having some more sleep, although I did have some pretty vivid dreams.
Hoping it will get better? But just feel like crying to be honest. It worries me that I can't cope with work and I'm off sick again. Supposed to be back on Sunday for a night shift :ohmy:
If anyone can help i'd be very grateful
x
I went back to work on Wednesday after some annual leave, didn't feel 100% but made it through the shift. Then today, was meant to be on a long day. Was all set to go, did cry before I went (not sure why - just a bit scared I spose), got in car, drove off and then just cried, and cried, and cried :weep:
Got 3/4 the way to work and after trying to calm myself down mainly by talking to myself which turned into frustrated shouting and screaming (thankful it was still dark!) I had to pull over.
I couldn't carry on. I couldn't see the road for a start! Phoned home and my boyfriend offered some soothing words. Luckily he was able to ring work for me and explain why I wasn't there. He said they were sympathetic and said I shouldn't worry and look after myself :weep: :weep:
I took my last Citalopram 20mg on Tuesday (doctor's orders) and thought I was doing ok. Didn't expect it to hit me this quick! I wouldn't say I'm totally broken again just yet. I'm ok. But i'm obviously not right??!!?
Feeling a bit better after having some more sleep, although I did have some pretty vivid dreams.
Hoping it will get better? But just feel like crying to be honest. It worries me that I can't cope with work and I'm off sick again. Supposed to be back on Sunday for a night shift :ohmy:
If anyone can help i'd be very grateful
x