amu
24-10-08, 22:58
Hi,
I'm 27 and I've suffered from anxiety and depression since my father died four years ago.
The main issue is health anxiety, I usually have long-term fears lasting months rather than something new every year. I have had about 10-12 fears but I can group them together into "eras": end 2004-beginning 2005 was the brain tumour era, second half of 2005 was the skin cancer era, first half of 2006 was a break but second half was breast cancer era, 2007 was throat cancer, and 2008 has generally been filled with colon cancer worry.
I also have an underlying depression but I'm functioning as in working and raising a family but it's not going very well. I have never been on medication.
In addition I have had an unnatural fear of flying for a year, I'm also scared of motorways and I don't drive unless I have to.
I'm also terrified of failure and don't handle it well even if it's something little. I can't give presentations for a fear of making a mistake/a fool of myself and I generally can't speak to many people at the same time, or to strangers - I loathe ordering food in a restaurant and I generally avoid calling people I don't know - I try to do everything I can online.
My friends don't know anything as I am friendly and even outgoing/sociable with people I know. They and my colleagues think I'm a bit shy or I don't have enough confidence and keep telling me to go out there and do stuff confidently which just puts more stress on me as I don't really think it's a confidence issue, it is connected to my anxiety.
Love this site, it's great to try to help others and it gives me comfort listening to others' problems as it means I'm not as lonely as I feel in "real life".
Amu
I'm 27 and I've suffered from anxiety and depression since my father died four years ago.
The main issue is health anxiety, I usually have long-term fears lasting months rather than something new every year. I have had about 10-12 fears but I can group them together into "eras": end 2004-beginning 2005 was the brain tumour era, second half of 2005 was the skin cancer era, first half of 2006 was a break but second half was breast cancer era, 2007 was throat cancer, and 2008 has generally been filled with colon cancer worry.
I also have an underlying depression but I'm functioning as in working and raising a family but it's not going very well. I have never been on medication.
In addition I have had an unnatural fear of flying for a year, I'm also scared of motorways and I don't drive unless I have to.
I'm also terrified of failure and don't handle it well even if it's something little. I can't give presentations for a fear of making a mistake/a fool of myself and I generally can't speak to many people at the same time, or to strangers - I loathe ordering food in a restaurant and I generally avoid calling people I don't know - I try to do everything I can online.
My friends don't know anything as I am friendly and even outgoing/sociable with people I know. They and my colleagues think I'm a bit shy or I don't have enough confidence and keep telling me to go out there and do stuff confidently which just puts more stress on me as I don't really think it's a confidence issue, it is connected to my anxiety.
Love this site, it's great to try to help others and it gives me comfort listening to others' problems as it means I'm not as lonely as I feel in "real life".
Amu