Dthomas2301
30-10-08, 20:41
Hello Everyone,
It's difficult to know where to start, but hear goes.
I'm a 48yr old 'boy', and still trying to grow up. I remember vividly the experience of my very first full blown panic attack at the age of 11. Since then I have had many periods of intense anxiety, resulting in hundreds of panic attacks. Some of them have been a series of 'rolling' attacks. Where I have come out of one, and then straight into another. Then I have had long periods, where I have successfully controlled them. Having said all of that, I am always a stray thought away from the next one.
I've spent many an hour talking to councilors and therapists. Very few have ever been able to get through my untrusting nature. I've always felt people were saying things just to make me feel good. And not really trying to find out why I am so highly strung/sensitive. I always have my 'safe place' that I run back to, and when I say run, it's always a dizzy rushed experience. I have sometimes called myself an authority on panic attacks, how wrong I am. The one consolation I have is that I can see that there are many of you out there, just like me. I think I also get a fair few ectopic heartbeats, that help fuel my anxiety, and cause me to slide deeper into my self obsession. What I mean by self obsession, is I tend to pay a lot of attention to my breathing (often trying to control it myself, rather than let the natural process do it's job), and constantly being aware of my own heartbeat.
Anyway people, that's a little bit of me for you to get a feeling for. I hope to meet some of you, so we can compare notes and experiences. And hopefully help make this whole experience much easier to cope with.
Thanks for reading this far....Derek :wacko:
It's difficult to know where to start, but hear goes.
I'm a 48yr old 'boy', and still trying to grow up. I remember vividly the experience of my very first full blown panic attack at the age of 11. Since then I have had many periods of intense anxiety, resulting in hundreds of panic attacks. Some of them have been a series of 'rolling' attacks. Where I have come out of one, and then straight into another. Then I have had long periods, where I have successfully controlled them. Having said all of that, I am always a stray thought away from the next one.
I've spent many an hour talking to councilors and therapists. Very few have ever been able to get through my untrusting nature. I've always felt people were saying things just to make me feel good. And not really trying to find out why I am so highly strung/sensitive. I always have my 'safe place' that I run back to, and when I say run, it's always a dizzy rushed experience. I have sometimes called myself an authority on panic attacks, how wrong I am. The one consolation I have is that I can see that there are many of you out there, just like me. I think I also get a fair few ectopic heartbeats, that help fuel my anxiety, and cause me to slide deeper into my self obsession. What I mean by self obsession, is I tend to pay a lot of attention to my breathing (often trying to control it myself, rather than let the natural process do it's job), and constantly being aware of my own heartbeat.
Anyway people, that's a little bit of me for you to get a feeling for. I hope to meet some of you, so we can compare notes and experiences. And hopefully help make this whole experience much easier to cope with.
Thanks for reading this far....Derek :wacko: