Rachel W
02-11-08, 14:02
Hi Guys,
I left a message a while ago but now things seem to have gotten much worse.
It all started out in August when I had an eye exam and I found that I had some distortion in my right eye. I freaked thinking it was macular degeneration, but had retina scans and everything and I was fine.
So, I go home and for the next few days I was doing research and I found that it can be caused by ocular neuritis which is a common sign of MS. I tried to think positively as I was in a car accident in 2004 and had suffered damage to my vestibular nerve on the right side which causes me to get dizzy for months at a time, so figured that maybe it happened then instead (as it is hard to detect without just looking through my right eye to read (which I never do and I had noticed bleariness at a few doctor's visits but assumed that it was because I had just been covering that eye first).
But of course, being anxious, I had noticed that I was weak in the legs (a little before actually, but I had also been spending a lot of time on the computer with legs curled up under me for days on end). But the weakness became really bad, but when I exercised it went away, or reduced greatly. Then I thought back to two incidences where I had tried to grab something and had difficulty, one was when I was in a major rush and took a few times to take a receipt from someone, and then one was when I couldn't get the corner of a paper towel. My typing had also been a little off but I am a random typer and I was really dizzy at the time and this is one of the usual symptoms especially as I felt that I had been overdoing it doing some contract computer design on the side.
When I thought of these I was convinced that I had MS, but then something worse happened, I started worrying about ALS (MND). Since then I started noticing every little thing my hands were doing, and how they looked. My hands have gotten weaker and weaker and pcking up small objects is really difficult. I have twitches everywhere, and they have concentrated in my hands and arms. My legs feel either weak or stiff when I walk and I have cramps in my calves. I am now convinced that I have ALS.
I went to my GP and he said that he did not want to examone me as he did not have any knowledge of the disease and wants me to go to a neurologist. My boyfriend booked me to see one in a really good hospital but the guy specialises in ALS which has frightened me more. I want to go to a general neurologist so he can be more open minded I guess.
I am so scared. At this point I don't know how it could be anything else. I am at the point that if they told me I have MS I would be happy!
Can anxiety do all this? Could the initial symptoms that I remembered afterwards be just coincidences as it seems strange that I worry about a disease first before showing most of the symptoms (the others were not bothering me until after I first started worrying. I would not have been worrying at all if it had not been for the sight issue and that isn't even a symptom. Would that be too much of a coincidence?
I don't even see a future for me anymore. I am terified and crying a lot.
Please help!!!!
Rachel
I left a message a while ago but now things seem to have gotten much worse.
It all started out in August when I had an eye exam and I found that I had some distortion in my right eye. I freaked thinking it was macular degeneration, but had retina scans and everything and I was fine.
So, I go home and for the next few days I was doing research and I found that it can be caused by ocular neuritis which is a common sign of MS. I tried to think positively as I was in a car accident in 2004 and had suffered damage to my vestibular nerve on the right side which causes me to get dizzy for months at a time, so figured that maybe it happened then instead (as it is hard to detect without just looking through my right eye to read (which I never do and I had noticed bleariness at a few doctor's visits but assumed that it was because I had just been covering that eye first).
But of course, being anxious, I had noticed that I was weak in the legs (a little before actually, but I had also been spending a lot of time on the computer with legs curled up under me for days on end). But the weakness became really bad, but when I exercised it went away, or reduced greatly. Then I thought back to two incidences where I had tried to grab something and had difficulty, one was when I was in a major rush and took a few times to take a receipt from someone, and then one was when I couldn't get the corner of a paper towel. My typing had also been a little off but I am a random typer and I was really dizzy at the time and this is one of the usual symptoms especially as I felt that I had been overdoing it doing some contract computer design on the side.
When I thought of these I was convinced that I had MS, but then something worse happened, I started worrying about ALS (MND). Since then I started noticing every little thing my hands were doing, and how they looked. My hands have gotten weaker and weaker and pcking up small objects is really difficult. I have twitches everywhere, and they have concentrated in my hands and arms. My legs feel either weak or stiff when I walk and I have cramps in my calves. I am now convinced that I have ALS.
I went to my GP and he said that he did not want to examone me as he did not have any knowledge of the disease and wants me to go to a neurologist. My boyfriend booked me to see one in a really good hospital but the guy specialises in ALS which has frightened me more. I want to go to a general neurologist so he can be more open minded I guess.
I am so scared. At this point I don't know how it could be anything else. I am at the point that if they told me I have MS I would be happy!
Can anxiety do all this? Could the initial symptoms that I remembered afterwards be just coincidences as it seems strange that I worry about a disease first before showing most of the symptoms (the others were not bothering me until after I first started worrying. I would not have been worrying at all if it had not been for the sight issue and that isn't even a symptom. Would that be too much of a coincidence?
I don't even see a future for me anymore. I am terified and crying a lot.
Please help!!!!
Rachel