Piscian Daydreamer
10-06-05, 18:56
Please, someone has to help me.
Tonight things have made me physically sick, i am absolutely horrified by what has happened.
Ive been at uni for the last year and things have been hard. Ive really missed my friends back home and ive been pining to see them for weeks knowing that they would be returning from university today! However, when i got home tonight my other friend told me that they had all come back and gone on holiday to magaluf straight away! About 8 of them, they hadn't even told me, or the few others! Even worse, i was only speaking to them all at the weekend about them coming home and i was telling them that i cannot wait to see them again! They all agreed with me and led me to beleive that with everyone back we would be all meeting up tonight! They had planned this holiday all along and never told me or the others! I cannot understand why, i feel absolutely sick, like someone has ripped my heart from me..
These lads were a snidy group anyway, i couldnt ever really trust them properly, but doing this has caused by anxiety to go bananas - i feel an all time low tonight. I feel every emotion now, hate towards them, absolutely sickened. I have been desperate for the summer to start and desperate to see these guys again.
After they have done this, i just feel that there is no way back now, i can never be friends with these people again. BUT ITS NOT AS SIMPLE AS THAT. i have 14 weeks off now in the summer, i have been hanging with these people all my life - without them i have absolutely nothing!! I go insane without them during term time........ i need them....... but now i found out what they have so deceitfully done to me and the others........... I AM ABSOLUTELY SICKENED.
Please, tell me what i should do..
I have nothing anymore.
Tonight things have made me physically sick, i am absolutely horrified by what has happened.
Ive been at uni for the last year and things have been hard. Ive really missed my friends back home and ive been pining to see them for weeks knowing that they would be returning from university today! However, when i got home tonight my other friend told me that they had all come back and gone on holiday to magaluf straight away! About 8 of them, they hadn't even told me, or the few others! Even worse, i was only speaking to them all at the weekend about them coming home and i was telling them that i cannot wait to see them again! They all agreed with me and led me to beleive that with everyone back we would be all meeting up tonight! They had planned this holiday all along and never told me or the others! I cannot understand why, i feel absolutely sick, like someone has ripped my heart from me..
These lads were a snidy group anyway, i couldnt ever really trust them properly, but doing this has caused by anxiety to go bananas - i feel an all time low tonight. I feel every emotion now, hate towards them, absolutely sickened. I have been desperate for the summer to start and desperate to see these guys again.
After they have done this, i just feel that there is no way back now, i can never be friends with these people again. BUT ITS NOT AS SIMPLE AS THAT. i have 14 weeks off now in the summer, i have been hanging with these people all my life - without them i have absolutely nothing!! I go insane without them during term time........ i need them....... but now i found out what they have so deceitfully done to me and the others........... I AM ABSOLUTELY SICKENED.
Please, tell me what i should do..
I have nothing anymore.