bluesparkle
10-06-05, 20:12
hi...
i know i posted about getting through a week away... but i just had to post again... i am so happy at the moment... i seem to have found me!!!
yes i still get panicy and anxious and still have the odd moment where the ocd over takes ... and i know that i will probably have a few bad days along the way but i have learnt that they do pass and cant hurt me... and best of all i know that when its hard i have real people on here that really care and will talk to me...
i know my limits now and im not afraid to say to people that "im sorry but i cant do/face that today" but maybe tomorrow ... i am not ashamed anymore....
i am just enjoying life at the moment... i enjoyed cleaning the house... i enjoyed mowing the lawn... i enjoyed having my daughter home ill today(well you know what i mean) ...sounds mad i know but i had lost my emotions ...and now they are back... yes i do my fair share of crying too but i know that its fine...
a few weeks ago i wasnt sure how long i could go on just being... and being so un happy...
no everything in my life isnt sorted but i can cope...
and it is all thanks to you lot and all the support you have given me...
i really hope i can help others now ... i know this is only the first few steps but now ive taken them im ready to continue... there was no magic cure just alot of understanding from all of you ...
i hope you dont mind me posting a similar post again but i of all people wasnt convinced things would get better and i just wanted to share it with people as i like reading the success stories on here too and hope it will give other people hope...
thank you all for being there ... it means alot to me...
rach
x
i know i posted about getting through a week away... but i just had to post again... i am so happy at the moment... i seem to have found me!!!
yes i still get panicy and anxious and still have the odd moment where the ocd over takes ... and i know that i will probably have a few bad days along the way but i have learnt that they do pass and cant hurt me... and best of all i know that when its hard i have real people on here that really care and will talk to me...
i know my limits now and im not afraid to say to people that "im sorry but i cant do/face that today" but maybe tomorrow ... i am not ashamed anymore....
i am just enjoying life at the moment... i enjoyed cleaning the house... i enjoyed mowing the lawn... i enjoyed having my daughter home ill today(well you know what i mean) ...sounds mad i know but i had lost my emotions ...and now they are back... yes i do my fair share of crying too but i know that its fine...
a few weeks ago i wasnt sure how long i could go on just being... and being so un happy...
no everything in my life isnt sorted but i can cope...
and it is all thanks to you lot and all the support you have given me...
i really hope i can help others now ... i know this is only the first few steps but now ive taken them im ready to continue... there was no magic cure just alot of understanding from all of you ...
i hope you dont mind me posting a similar post again but i of all people wasnt convinced things would get better and i just wanted to share it with people as i like reading the success stories on here too and hope it will give other people hope...
thank you all for being there ... it means alot to me...
rach
x