Blackstar
04-11-08, 12:10
My partner was admitted to hospital on Sunday night with an (as yet unidentified) infection. She is very, very poorly and I had to watch my normally strong and confident girlfriend in tears as they said she had to stay in, have a battery of tests and watch me leave when the nurses kicked me out. It broke my heart.
Now, two days on, she's texted me this morning to say they have the results of the blood tests and she will hopefully be told what the cause is during the morning round. But I'm here at work, going out of my mind with worry because I just have to know what it is.
I know I can't help, I'm powerless, I'm a wreck and in tears most of the time. Plus the irrational anxiety beast is worried in case it's something like HIV and I've given it to her. I've never been tested for it (too scared), although it's unlikely I'm infected. Still, I can't help worrying about it.
I am honestly at rock bottom. I can't get through to her on the phone, and I trembling with anxiety and all the symptoms of it. Can't sleep, can't eat, dizzy, tired, upset and my heart is flipping all over the place.
I would appreciate any words of wisdom, please. I don't know what to do with myself :weep:
Thank you so much...
Anna. x
Now, two days on, she's texted me this morning to say they have the results of the blood tests and she will hopefully be told what the cause is during the morning round. But I'm here at work, going out of my mind with worry because I just have to know what it is.
I know I can't help, I'm powerless, I'm a wreck and in tears most of the time. Plus the irrational anxiety beast is worried in case it's something like HIV and I've given it to her. I've never been tested for it (too scared), although it's unlikely I'm infected. Still, I can't help worrying about it.
I am honestly at rock bottom. I can't get through to her on the phone, and I trembling with anxiety and all the symptoms of it. Can't sleep, can't eat, dizzy, tired, upset and my heart is flipping all over the place.
I would appreciate any words of wisdom, please. I don't know what to do with myself :weep:
Thank you so much...
Anna. x