MartyJD
04-11-08, 15:52
Hi All My name is Martin I am from barnsley south yorkshire and I am 24 years old.
I have suffering with Depression since I was 16 years of age and things have gotten alot worse I also suffer with OCD and being treated for "Post Traumatic Stress"
When I was 16 I came out to my parents as gay which was the hardest thing anyone could do at 16! its was a very difficult time as I wasnt accepted in the family and at school where I was bullied for a few years.
I was never the favourite in my family as I had 2 younger brothers who both loved football, girls, etc etc and me I loved Music, boybands, soaps, and I was a mummy's boy!
at the same time my mum and dad were constantly arguing and my dad used to him my mum on several occasions 1 time they come home from a night out argued and I heard screaming I went into the kitchen and there was my mum lying on floor and oil all over here and chip pan, I dont know who done what but was the most frightning night of my life I made the 999 call police arrived ambulance arrived, 4 hours laters hour my mum was released from hospital and came home I then stayed with her all night and made sure she was ok
The next morning things were said again more arguing then it was said
"Im Leaving" my mum managed to escape after years of abuse and went to a womans aid shelter where they got her a home and she was safe! I was still living with my dad at the time with 1 of my brothers as the other one who was only 10 went to live with my mum!
As sad as it was my mum leaving was even sadder because 3 days later it was Christmas Day! which was one of the worse christmas's I have ever had
so as we headed into 2002 March arrvied and I had met this guy online he was 28 and we had been talking for months and months and I decided to meet him he was in WALES! so things were all happy and going good I moved down to wales in may of 2002 where things were good a couple of years had passed and in 2004 things had started to changed my b/f at that time started to change, his mood would get darker and he would become all possesive one day I spoke back to him and boy did I wish I hadnt! {SLAP} shouted at, called all the names under the sun, at one point I was dragged down the stairs by scruff of my neck, water thrown at me, cups of tea, bowls, he even smashed photos up of my mum I had, was calling her really terrible names.
One night things were so bad he shut me in the spare room took all the blankets away from me, hide my mobile phone, cut the cables to my computer so I wasnt allowed any contact with anyone I was frightended! , crying, shaking, thinking all sorts of things
Next morning he was cold, not talking to me, being ignorant I didnt know what to do, this went on for 3 years I had a hobbie which was media and radio and I came across an internet radio station and I thought I could do this! so I applied and this is where I met Rob he was the owner of the station good looking guy, friendly funny we got on really well so well that we started to have an "online relationship as they call it" at the time I was still with my partner in wales but I didnt consider myself to be in a relationship rob was making me happy smile I felt alive again I felt wanted!
2 months had passed I came down the stairs one morning and Darren the partner in wales was sitting at my computer and said wanna tell me something! I said no? he said whos ROB? and why do you love him? {my jaw dropped} an argument started things were thrown I was hit more things were damaged! darren called his parents who only lived the round the corner came round and had a go at me told me how could I do this ruin his lif etc, { no who cares about me being hit} they didnt belive there son could do this}
I was awake night packing my things while darren was begging me then to stay " I love You" "I wont do it again" the usual stuff! I was determined to get away this time darren was trying to grab my case and wouldnt let me go I threw something his dad then charged up the stairs grabbed my the neck and through me in a wardrobe and said why do that why be stupid I was shaking but still wanting to get out there!
I finally made it out headed to swindon to stay with a friend, 2 weeks later rob came to meet me we were so happy so in love and til this day I am so grateful I met him the love of my life!
I have suffering with Depression since I was 16 years of age and things have gotten alot worse I also suffer with OCD and being treated for "Post Traumatic Stress"
When I was 16 I came out to my parents as gay which was the hardest thing anyone could do at 16! its was a very difficult time as I wasnt accepted in the family and at school where I was bullied for a few years.
I was never the favourite in my family as I had 2 younger brothers who both loved football, girls, etc etc and me I loved Music, boybands, soaps, and I was a mummy's boy!
at the same time my mum and dad were constantly arguing and my dad used to him my mum on several occasions 1 time they come home from a night out argued and I heard screaming I went into the kitchen and there was my mum lying on floor and oil all over here and chip pan, I dont know who done what but was the most frightning night of my life I made the 999 call police arrived ambulance arrived, 4 hours laters hour my mum was released from hospital and came home I then stayed with her all night and made sure she was ok
The next morning things were said again more arguing then it was said
"Im Leaving" my mum managed to escape after years of abuse and went to a womans aid shelter where they got her a home and she was safe! I was still living with my dad at the time with 1 of my brothers as the other one who was only 10 went to live with my mum!
As sad as it was my mum leaving was even sadder because 3 days later it was Christmas Day! which was one of the worse christmas's I have ever had
so as we headed into 2002 March arrvied and I had met this guy online he was 28 and we had been talking for months and months and I decided to meet him he was in WALES! so things were all happy and going good I moved down to wales in may of 2002 where things were good a couple of years had passed and in 2004 things had started to changed my b/f at that time started to change, his mood would get darker and he would become all possesive one day I spoke back to him and boy did I wish I hadnt! {SLAP} shouted at, called all the names under the sun, at one point I was dragged down the stairs by scruff of my neck, water thrown at me, cups of tea, bowls, he even smashed photos up of my mum I had, was calling her really terrible names.
One night things were so bad he shut me in the spare room took all the blankets away from me, hide my mobile phone, cut the cables to my computer so I wasnt allowed any contact with anyone I was frightended! , crying, shaking, thinking all sorts of things
Next morning he was cold, not talking to me, being ignorant I didnt know what to do, this went on for 3 years I had a hobbie which was media and radio and I came across an internet radio station and I thought I could do this! so I applied and this is where I met Rob he was the owner of the station good looking guy, friendly funny we got on really well so well that we started to have an "online relationship as they call it" at the time I was still with my partner in wales but I didnt consider myself to be in a relationship rob was making me happy smile I felt alive again I felt wanted!
2 months had passed I came down the stairs one morning and Darren the partner in wales was sitting at my computer and said wanna tell me something! I said no? he said whos ROB? and why do you love him? {my jaw dropped} an argument started things were thrown I was hit more things were damaged! darren called his parents who only lived the round the corner came round and had a go at me told me how could I do this ruin his lif etc, { no who cares about me being hit} they didnt belive there son could do this}
I was awake night packing my things while darren was begging me then to stay " I love You" "I wont do it again" the usual stuff! I was determined to get away this time darren was trying to grab my case and wouldnt let me go I threw something his dad then charged up the stairs grabbed my the neck and through me in a wardrobe and said why do that why be stupid I was shaking but still wanting to get out there!
I finally made it out headed to swindon to stay with a friend, 2 weeks later rob came to meet me we were so happy so in love and til this day I am so grateful I met him the love of my life!