turtlemoon
11-06-05, 20:15
Hi Everyone
For anyone that's read my posts before, you'll know that I've been getting on pretty well with my whole anxiety thing. However, what isn't getting better (and in actual fact in the last couple of weeks has got worse) is my worrying that there's something seriously wrong with me health wise. Right at the very beginning of all this I went to the doctors, who did all the tests and found nothing seriously wrong, but that doesn't seem to help me stop worrying!
The last couple of weeks I've had a really sore and cracked top lip and a rough, dry feeling tongue. Sometimes it tingles, sometimes it doesn't. Anyway, in my hyper state I decided to look up my symptoms on the internet. What a mistake! All I could find was stuff on oral cancer And HIV/AIDS, which freaked me out totally and made me so wound up I was nearly in tears. Then I found stuff on diabetes (something I've been tested for and found NOT to have!) and that got me all worked up again. Today I've been so hyped up about having something 'wrong' with me that I've been having palpitations and hot flushes, something I haven't had for about 2 months! Then because of that my chest started feeling tight, which set off the 'I must be having a heart attack' worries. I haven't had an anxiety attack for nearly 2 months now, but I really don't want them to come back because I'm getting worked up about something that's nothing. I know if I go to the doctors he'll just tell me it's my anxiety (and probably try putting me on meds again, which I don't want!) I suppose what I'm trying to say in a roundabout way is, has anyone else felt like this? Like you start thinking you've got one thing wrong with you and end up thinking it's a thousand things?! (The internet really doesn't help here because it's so tempting to go online and look up all your 'symptoms'!) Sorry for waffling on, but I'm feeling really frustrated right now. I'm getting on really well where my anxiety attacks are concerned, but this health thing seems to have taken me over. I've just changed jobs and am wondering if I've done the right thing, so that might have something to do with it I suppose? Like my anixety about my job has manifested itself in me worrying about my health rather than having an actual anxiety attack?!
Any help/comments would be very welcome!
Cheers
Turtle:(
For anyone that's read my posts before, you'll know that I've been getting on pretty well with my whole anxiety thing. However, what isn't getting better (and in actual fact in the last couple of weeks has got worse) is my worrying that there's something seriously wrong with me health wise. Right at the very beginning of all this I went to the doctors, who did all the tests and found nothing seriously wrong, but that doesn't seem to help me stop worrying!
The last couple of weeks I've had a really sore and cracked top lip and a rough, dry feeling tongue. Sometimes it tingles, sometimes it doesn't. Anyway, in my hyper state I decided to look up my symptoms on the internet. What a mistake! All I could find was stuff on oral cancer And HIV/AIDS, which freaked me out totally and made me so wound up I was nearly in tears. Then I found stuff on diabetes (something I've been tested for and found NOT to have!) and that got me all worked up again. Today I've been so hyped up about having something 'wrong' with me that I've been having palpitations and hot flushes, something I haven't had for about 2 months! Then because of that my chest started feeling tight, which set off the 'I must be having a heart attack' worries. I haven't had an anxiety attack for nearly 2 months now, but I really don't want them to come back because I'm getting worked up about something that's nothing. I know if I go to the doctors he'll just tell me it's my anxiety (and probably try putting me on meds again, which I don't want!) I suppose what I'm trying to say in a roundabout way is, has anyone else felt like this? Like you start thinking you've got one thing wrong with you and end up thinking it's a thousand things?! (The internet really doesn't help here because it's so tempting to go online and look up all your 'symptoms'!) Sorry for waffling on, but I'm feeling really frustrated right now. I'm getting on really well where my anxiety attacks are concerned, but this health thing seems to have taken me over. I've just changed jobs and am wondering if I've done the right thing, so that might have something to do with it I suppose? Like my anixety about my job has manifested itself in me worrying about my health rather than having an actual anxiety attack?!
Any help/comments would be very welcome!
Cheers
Turtle:(