bigbaz2005
11-06-05, 21:47
Its been two months since I had my first major panic attack, and since then I have been suffering constantly, feeling dizzy, headaches etc etc.
GP has given me propranolol as I have hypertension anyway, and they have taken the edge off. Last night, i went to a friends birthday party, as I finally felt up to doing a bit of socialising. I saw a lot of friends that I hadnt seen for a while and they all were asking how I was, saying they hadnt seen me, hoping there was nothing seriously wrong etc. Well all the attention just made me feel anxious and I ended up having to leave, feeling dizzy, nervous etc. When I got home I was feeling awful and very sorry for myself.
This morning I woke up and a couple of things hit me. Firstly the fact that so many people were concerned should be a positive, not a negative and I know there is people i can turn to for help. Secondly and far more importantly I had forgotten that the guy whos birthday it was suffers from MS. The guy has a life threatening illness that means he is in constant pain, but you would never guess as he enjoys life to the full, and it kinda makes my probelm seem small in comparison
I am not for one second trying to belittle anything any of us here suffer from, the past two months have been the worst of my life, but I personally realised things could be a whole lot worse, and there is always light at the end of the tunnel for me, and I need to start dealing with this more and getting back to enjoying myself
Baz
GP has given me propranolol as I have hypertension anyway, and they have taken the edge off. Last night, i went to a friends birthday party, as I finally felt up to doing a bit of socialising. I saw a lot of friends that I hadnt seen for a while and they all were asking how I was, saying they hadnt seen me, hoping there was nothing seriously wrong etc. Well all the attention just made me feel anxious and I ended up having to leave, feeling dizzy, nervous etc. When I got home I was feeling awful and very sorry for myself.
This morning I woke up and a couple of things hit me. Firstly the fact that so many people were concerned should be a positive, not a negative and I know there is people i can turn to for help. Secondly and far more importantly I had forgotten that the guy whos birthday it was suffers from MS. The guy has a life threatening illness that means he is in constant pain, but you would never guess as he enjoys life to the full, and it kinda makes my probelm seem small in comparison
I am not for one second trying to belittle anything any of us here suffer from, the past two months have been the worst of my life, but I personally realised things could be a whole lot worse, and there is always light at the end of the tunnel for me, and I need to start dealing with this more and getting back to enjoying myself
Baz