phil06
08-11-08, 22:32
I have had a week off work and I feel it's made me feel worse. I have had strange thoughts and feelings the last few weeks like "Perhaps I'm going back to my funny views when I was younger". I just turned 20 last month so I think it's brought about all this I feel my life is a circle every year it's Halloween or Christmas and I compare it to last year.
I have been stressed out really easily. When I am anxious I know it's best to relax watch a DVD but I felt I was going into an emotional breakdown the other night when my dog urinated my floor. It was cleaned up but last night I worried it still smelled so i felt like I was going crazy and I was unable to go and watch a DVD. I'm sitting here still paranoid there is a smell three days later after I read in google it can get under the floor and smell.
Eventually I did but I feel my anxiety is powering. I just duno where my life is going and I'm always feeling insecure about the future/past. I'm fed up of horrible thoughts too.
I don't know what will make me feel better some days I think a walk will but then I get bored of this..I just feel my life is a bit dull at the moment. I got some new things for my room in the last few months and I thought I'd be pleased but now it's here I don't seem bothered.
I'm just unable to accept my life since 2007 when I was with my ex g.f and I had a job I enjoyed and now I have a job and friends but just feel stale. I think I get anxious sometimes and get depersonalization and think my life is all a dream or a film.
Right now I feel anxious for no major stand out reason. I had a panic attack the other night I just don't know why. I guess I have nothing to worry about but somehow I feel rubbish. :weep:
I have been stressed out really easily. When I am anxious I know it's best to relax watch a DVD but I felt I was going into an emotional breakdown the other night when my dog urinated my floor. It was cleaned up but last night I worried it still smelled so i felt like I was going crazy and I was unable to go and watch a DVD. I'm sitting here still paranoid there is a smell three days later after I read in google it can get under the floor and smell.
Eventually I did but I feel my anxiety is powering. I just duno where my life is going and I'm always feeling insecure about the future/past. I'm fed up of horrible thoughts too.
I don't know what will make me feel better some days I think a walk will but then I get bored of this..I just feel my life is a bit dull at the moment. I got some new things for my room in the last few months and I thought I'd be pleased but now it's here I don't seem bothered.
I'm just unable to accept my life since 2007 when I was with my ex g.f and I had a job I enjoyed and now I have a job and friends but just feel stale. I think I get anxious sometimes and get depersonalization and think my life is all a dream or a film.
Right now I feel anxious for no major stand out reason. I had a panic attack the other night I just don't know why. I guess I have nothing to worry about but somehow I feel rubbish. :weep: