tashbarnes87
15-11-08, 18:01
Hello, a few of you know that since becoming pregnant i have suffered with Health Anxiety. I have had all the usual scares cancer of every part of my body and a good few months ( Ongoing ) convinced i have HIV. I have been to the doctors every week for the past 3 months and everyone is sick of me. The receptionist at the docs know my voice!! Ok, so my latest scare was a 'enlarged' gland under my arm pit, combine that with the night sweats that i have been having and i am convinced i have lymphoma due to my googling. Went to the doctors yesterday and he checked out my lump and said its not even enlarged just my head playing tricks and there is definitly no chance of cancer, appparently night sweats are a big pregnancy symptom. Ok i go away feeling much better, he is a lovely doctor and understands my fears. I wake up this morning and still feel good until i brush my teeth and notice i have yet another ulcer on the side of my tongue, i google it ( even though i have been down this road before) and it turns out i probably have cancer. I try and calm down and remember that i have been to the docs and just had a full blood count and i am fine. I go to the hair dressers and catch the sight of my lip, which has a raised section on which is white, again i think about month ago when i cried my eyes out to the doctor over this exact raised white lump. He checked it on 2 seperate occasions and said its definitly not cancer and if anything a molecule ( spelling ) cyst which is pregnancy related. Sorry for the rant but it seems i have to worry about something, i have worried myself sick time after time about these minor issues on my body and the moment i get the ok from my doc its almost like my head goes right what shall we worry about now. I have had an ulcer every week for the past couple of months and the doc said if anything its pregnancy and stress but i think its HIV ( which i have had the test for and it was negative - not that i beleive it ) i am sick of this. :wacko: thanks for listening. I just wonder if everyone elses brain works like this
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