phil06
15-11-08, 23:48
I'm fed up of anxiety thoughts. For a few weeks they eased off the obsessive ones but they have returned again.
I worry about small things, time, cleaning, smells and got paranoid by a smell on my laminate floor recently. Then I worry about bigger things like HOCD thoughts, manic depression coming back (this one seems to have eased down a bit) weight and stuff like that.
I am terrified by these HOCD thoughts I am only into woman but I get what if what thoughts and the cycle roles on to like "what if people think I don't like woman" so my reaction is to prove I am just into woman by going and looking at one.
I feel insecure since I split with a long term g.f about a year ago. I had a g.f a few weeks back but that never worked out due to distance but I just keep worrying. After a long gap single and focusing on work i just feel I don't care about a relationship like I use to. I like feel there is no ideal woman for me at present after looking and looking for months now I have eased this has caused me more HOCD anxiety. I get the symptom from the OCD page here "looking at a member of the same sex triggers anxiety and unwanted thoughts".
I don't see why i can't get rid of this? I find woman attractive and am content with that but I have a major anxiety problem where I worry like crap for ages. I find it all scary perhaps it's a loss of control but I know I am in control because I am content with woman. Any kind of joke on this would result on me taking major offense plus I have to avoid anybody who looks dodgy mainly people of the same sex.
Stuff like going for a walk is not easy as I work long days and nights so i don't always have much time and go to bed and the stress comes back next day. The funny thing is like most anxiety when I don't think about it i just get on with my life or enjoy looking at woman. I only want to be with woman and want rid of this anxiety.
Why does anxiety have to make me worry like this? I've accepted it's anxiety but I still fear the anxiety will some how change me, dwift me away from reality? I worried constantly about manic depression coming back for 2 years almost which is a long worry and it's taken a long time to ease down.
I'm just wondering what's it going to be next? I just want to get rid of the horrible, awful thoughts. Each new worry seems massive at the time when "worry" is in the head. :weep: How can It get easier and how can I deal with this and get on with my life?
I worry about small things, time, cleaning, smells and got paranoid by a smell on my laminate floor recently. Then I worry about bigger things like HOCD thoughts, manic depression coming back (this one seems to have eased down a bit) weight and stuff like that.
I am terrified by these HOCD thoughts I am only into woman but I get what if what thoughts and the cycle roles on to like "what if people think I don't like woman" so my reaction is to prove I am just into woman by going and looking at one.
I feel insecure since I split with a long term g.f about a year ago. I had a g.f a few weeks back but that never worked out due to distance but I just keep worrying. After a long gap single and focusing on work i just feel I don't care about a relationship like I use to. I like feel there is no ideal woman for me at present after looking and looking for months now I have eased this has caused me more HOCD anxiety. I get the symptom from the OCD page here "looking at a member of the same sex triggers anxiety and unwanted thoughts".
I don't see why i can't get rid of this? I find woman attractive and am content with that but I have a major anxiety problem where I worry like crap for ages. I find it all scary perhaps it's a loss of control but I know I am in control because I am content with woman. Any kind of joke on this would result on me taking major offense plus I have to avoid anybody who looks dodgy mainly people of the same sex.
Stuff like going for a walk is not easy as I work long days and nights so i don't always have much time and go to bed and the stress comes back next day. The funny thing is like most anxiety when I don't think about it i just get on with my life or enjoy looking at woman. I only want to be with woman and want rid of this anxiety.
Why does anxiety have to make me worry like this? I've accepted it's anxiety but I still fear the anxiety will some how change me, dwift me away from reality? I worried constantly about manic depression coming back for 2 years almost which is a long worry and it's taken a long time to ease down.
I'm just wondering what's it going to be next? I just want to get rid of the horrible, awful thoughts. Each new worry seems massive at the time when "worry" is in the head. :weep: How can It get easier and how can I deal with this and get on with my life?