PhoenixGrey
17-11-08, 12:30
Okay, so now I have oesophagus/larynx cancer - or maybe lung cancer - I haven't decided yet - but yet another trip to the doctors is going to be occurring today!!!
I mean its winter so a slightly hoarse voice is completely normal - particularly when I had a very panicked walk to work this morning - but no, now I'm so scared about everything it must be cancer!
Does anyone else operate like this? I don't even know the reasons I'm going to the doctors - I just want reassurance, I'm not even scared that I have something now - I'm scared that I'll have something in the future.
I am seeing a counsellor on Wednesday - but I get the feeling that won't help much - what therapies have proven useful for anyone? I want to get out of this now while i'm 20 - before I'm 40 and have spent 20 years worrying! (If only I hadn't smoked for the past 5 years maybe i'd be slightly more confident that everything's going to be fine!)
I mean its winter so a slightly hoarse voice is completely normal - particularly when I had a very panicked walk to work this morning - but no, now I'm so scared about everything it must be cancer!
Does anyone else operate like this? I don't even know the reasons I'm going to the doctors - I just want reassurance, I'm not even scared that I have something now - I'm scared that I'll have something in the future.
I am seeing a counsellor on Wednesday - but I get the feeling that won't help much - what therapies have proven useful for anyone? I want to get out of this now while i'm 20 - before I'm 40 and have spent 20 years worrying! (If only I hadn't smoked for the past 5 years maybe i'd be slightly more confident that everything's going to be fine!)