xbabybear
17-11-08, 20:49
Hello I am new to the forums this is my first post. I have had bouts of excessive swallowing before that came and went over the years; and it just started up again a few days ago so I googled it to figure out what the problem is once and for all and this site came up. Usually it starts out that I feel like there's mucous in my throat and I either try to swallow it or I try to hack it up and spit it out. Either way it gets worse and starts to feel like I have globs or lumps of stuff in my throat that I can't swallow and I unconsciously keep swallowing all day and my jaw starts hurting.
I also sometimes have scary violent thoughts like sometimes I will be just walking past a complete stranger and suddenly get a slight urge to hit them, or even weirder to kiss them??? not really an urge actually just more of a thought like 'what would happen if I did this?' Then once I saw a very graphic video about abortion which had images of dead babies, dismembered babies really disgusting and horrifying; and then for weeks after that I couldn't see my baby sleeping without panicking that he was not breathing and already dead; and I had dreams that I took the scissors and stabbed him in the heart.
Then I also very often have the feeling that there's someone behind me even though I know there's no one. I didn't see anything about that being a symptom reading the 'first steps' post; but I wonder if it is? It scares me because it makes me feel like there's some kind of presence that I can't see trailing around behind me.
I have high sensitivity a condition that's biological-I have an extremely sensitive nervous system- that gives me heightened sensitivity to everything. I don't know if maybe that could be causing the symptoms; or maybe it causes anxiety which causes the symptoms or maybe it's unrelated...
Also I have had trouble controlling emotions my entire life.
I just need some opinions from people who know about this stuff ; have I had an anxiety disorder my whole life without knowing it???
thanks in advance for replies
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oh and also I think I might have had panic attacks before; it sometimes happened when I was at work that just all of a sudden I would feel pressure in my chest and like I couldn't breathe deep enough even though I was breathing enough. It made me feel a little dizzy too.
I also sometimes have scary violent thoughts like sometimes I will be just walking past a complete stranger and suddenly get a slight urge to hit them, or even weirder to kiss them??? not really an urge actually just more of a thought like 'what would happen if I did this?' Then once I saw a very graphic video about abortion which had images of dead babies, dismembered babies really disgusting and horrifying; and then for weeks after that I couldn't see my baby sleeping without panicking that he was not breathing and already dead; and I had dreams that I took the scissors and stabbed him in the heart.
Then I also very often have the feeling that there's someone behind me even though I know there's no one. I didn't see anything about that being a symptom reading the 'first steps' post; but I wonder if it is? It scares me because it makes me feel like there's some kind of presence that I can't see trailing around behind me.
I have high sensitivity a condition that's biological-I have an extremely sensitive nervous system- that gives me heightened sensitivity to everything. I don't know if maybe that could be causing the symptoms; or maybe it causes anxiety which causes the symptoms or maybe it's unrelated...
Also I have had trouble controlling emotions my entire life.
I just need some opinions from people who know about this stuff ; have I had an anxiety disorder my whole life without knowing it???
thanks in advance for replies
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oh and also I think I might have had panic attacks before; it sometimes happened when I was at work that just all of a sudden I would feel pressure in my chest and like I couldn't breathe deep enough even though I was breathing enough. It made me feel a little dizzy too.